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INTERVIEW WITH ALEX RITANY ABOUT “MAYBE TOMORROW I’LL KNOW”

NOTE: This week’s update is a transcription of a live interview done as part of the Tilly’s Trans Tuesdays podcast. Special thanks to Nomi-Be for the transcription!

Tilly Bridges: Welcome to Tilly’s Trans Tuesdays. This week, we interview writer Alex Ritany about their upcoming book, Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know. And trust me when I say you’re going to want to hear all about it.

Hi, I’m Tilly Bridges, your host, and I’m joined by my writing partner, my best friend, my wife, our token, cis representation, the one and only person I’d want to be stuck in a time loop with, Susan Bridges.

Susan Bridges: Oh! A time loop sounds really relaxing right now. No more bad things could happen for a while.

TB: Right?

SB: We just put a pause on reality. That’d be great.

TB: Our guest this week is Alex Ritany, a Canadian artist, musician, and YA author of Dead Girls Don’t Say Sorry from Knopp BFYR, I Wish You Wouldn’t, and Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know, upcoming April 7th, 2026, from Norton BFYR. When they’re not at the keyboard, you can find them hosting tabletop game night, working on illustrations, or at their other keyboard, composing music. Alex’s love of art, music, and the Western Canadian landscape regularly spills into their writing, which tends to feature complex friendships, twisty romances, and explorations of queerness. They live in Calgary with their roommate, cat, and dice collection. Welcome, Alex!

Alex Ritany: Thanks for having me, it’s good to be with you guys today!

TB: So, given that you write prose, and compose music, and do illustrations, it feels like you’ve got this drive to just sort of create and make things, and so do I. But where did that come from for you?

AR: Oh, it’s definitely cultivated in our house growing up. Like, my parents are both musicians. They met in grad school for music, so, like…

TB: Oh wow.

AR: …both were immediately very passionate about that and passed that on to us. So music was actually the big thing in our house, but I’ve been telling stories and have been supported in doing that since I was very small. Like, some of my earliest memories are putting together a little, like, illustrative story that I wrote and illustrated that my parents helped, you know, put together…

TB: That’s amazing.

AR: …in the actual physical form.

TB: I love that so much.

AR: Yeah, it’s… I’m very grateful to have been raised in that environment. Like, my dad’s a very talented artist as well, so I got to see that growing up, and kind of chased that a little bit myself, and writing.

SB: That’s really cool.

AR: Yeah, writing… writing’s always been a bit of a, kind of, escape thing.

TB: Sure.

TB: For a lot of us.

SB: Yeah.

TB: I wish I’d had a childhood like that. Like, all of my creativity is sort of in spite of the way I was raised, so… but, you know, however we get there, that’s all that matters, right?

AR: Yeah. I find those of us who are kind of prolific in terms of making stuff usually come from kind of one extreme or the other.

TB: Yeah, but I feel also… like, we work in so many mediums, Susan and I, and we are always writing or making something. And I feel like if I’m not, I don’t feel alive. It’s, like, the best thing.

AR: Yeah, if I… if everything gets too busy to the point that I can’t be making stuff, I start going into what I call the death spiral tar pit. I’m like, “what is the point of me?” And it’s not even a, like, “here’s where my worth comes from.” It’s just like, I’m not having fun. Come on. I want to be making something.

TB: Yeah, yeah, it’s…

SB: Creating aligns your atoms.

AR: Yeah.

SB: Yeah, like an MRI machine.

TB: I love that. No, it does, because if I’m not, I’ll just be cranky and upset and miserable all the time, and it’s just… there’s something so beautiful about just making things to connect thoughts and feelings with other humans. It’s just… it’s just the best thing.

AR: Yeah, totally. Totally gotta keep doing it, or I get bad to be around.

TB: Yeah, exactly. Well, okay, so for you, what has been the best thing about transitioning?

AR: Oh… all of it?

TB: Yeah!

AR: I think there have been so many beautiful, good, individual moments. The big collective good has been releasing the weight that I hadn’t realized dysphoria was putting on me for so long, even before I had words for that. I’m now getting to the place where I pass in public, for the most part. And to be gendered the way I prefer to be gendered, just… it makes the gears of every day move smoother.

TB: Ooh! Yeah, I love that.

AR: There’s so many little frictions and upsets that I just don’t have to deal with anymore, that are just gone. Because I feel more at home in my skin, I feel correctly seen and validated by people who don’t even know they’re correctly seeing and validating me, in a way they might not have previously,

TB: Yeah.

AR: And it is so much easier to just be. I kind of have had a revelation I know a lot of us have of the, “oh, so this is what it’s like for cis people all the time?”

TB: “All the time, for their whole lives, without even trying?” Yeah, yeah.

AR: But that’s just been such a blessing to step into that. You know, I had my top surgery in the fall, and it was just as affirming as I thought it would be. I know some people have had, you know, really emotional experiences around their surgery. Or, you know, having some kinds of, like, hormonal depressive episodes afterwards. And I was, like, really prepared for that, but it was just so good, rich. I’m so grateful for, but… it has made every aspect of my life more fun, more interesting, and more me.

TB: Yeah. Did you find it also made you, like, better at, I guess… just being a human? Because, like, transitioning made me a better writer, but it made me a better mom, it made me a better wife, it made me a better friend. Because I could I could give more of myself, because I wasn’t buried by dysphoria.

AR: Yes, yeah, for sure. I feel way more able to be present.

TB: Yeah.

AR: And I have… I mean, I’ve always been a fairly introspective person, where I have never had trouble being on my own. Or just sitting with myself. But it’s easier to do that without immediately going into the, “well, I’m gonna think about something else, something creative, something fun.” I can just kind of be, and be in social settings without having that kind of ticking timer of, “the spring is tightening, and tightening, and tightening, and something’s gonna give,” and I’m just always aware of that at some point when I’m in social situations. I don’t have that as much anymore, which I think makes me more attentive to the people around me.

TB: Yes, exactly, yeah.

AR: Yeah. Yeah, for sure.

TB: That’s beautiful. So on the flip side of that then, what has been the worst or maybe most difficult part of transition for you?

AR: Oh, it’s… there’s… some social stuff is hard.

TB: Yeah.

AR: I know. It’s… I mean, I did not have a particularly easy experience with my initial transition. It was kind of… there was some big roadblocks, and then after that, the people who were left were really good. But I did, like… When I came out, it cost me my marriage, because I was married at the time.

TB: Oh, I’m so sorry.

AR: Yeah, me too. It was… it was too bad, because we were… we were very good partners to each other. But you know, if someone’s not queer, you can’t make them queer. That’s… that’s what it came down to. I have complicated feelings about that, but.

TB: Yeah.

AR: When I came out, I lost that relationship. So that relationship ended and that extended family… and then I also was estranged from my own parents for three years after the fact.

TB: Oh my goodness.

AR: So that was very turbulent And it made for, what I call that period of my life, a period of extremes.

TB: Sure.

AR: Because there was the extreme joy in coming out and, you know, being validated and recognized by the people that I had around me, and feeling so fulfilled in my own skin. And then also just dealing with the actual divorce was way less turbulent than trying to deal with my parents, which is like… how do you break up with your parents?

TB: Yeah. Yeah, I, like… my father died when I was really young, and so he never got to know the real me. And my mother died, like, ten years before I realized and came out. But I know that she would have never… never… it would have… I mean, she and I barely talked beforehand, because we disagreed on so many fundamental things that are important to me about life. And so, it’s so… it’s such a hard thing. Like, did it impact you in coming out and choosing to transition? Were you… like, the fear of losing so many people, was that really hard to get over?

AR: Yes. I think in a lot of ways, I stayed closeted to myself for a lot longer than I would have otherwise.

TB: Sure.

AR: Because it just felt like that… this cupboard door that kept kind of coming open, and I would just slam it shut, like, “I don’t want to see what’s in there!”

TB: Relatable!

AR: There’s gonna be… there’s gonna be consequences if I open the cupboard.

TB: Yeah.

AR: So I’m just gonna leave the cupboard closed. And it was actually starting to write, and realizing… it was basically right when I realized I was gonna be published, when my debut was gonna come out. It’s like, all of a sudden, I’m going to go from potentially never really being perceived in public by a bunch of people, and kind of living my own private life, to all of a sudden, I will exist to other people in some way.

TB: You will be perceived.

AR: I will be perceived, whether I like it or not, and the idea of doing that and going into a writing career and being perceived as a woman made me so ill that I… like, it was… that was a breaking point. I couldn’t, and I, you know, I came out about… it was just about six months before the divorce and the eventual, kind of, estrangement from my parents. I came out as non-binary, in that very, kind of, you know, one foot in the door. Like, nothing’s gonna change, but…

TB: Right.

AR: Because at that point, I wasn’t sure about, like, going on hormones. I knew probably down the road I’d want top surgery, but I was like, “you can still call me my deadname. That’s fine.” It doesn’t, like… you know, basically groveling for, like, “don’t hate me for this.”

TB: Yeah, we do so much to try to appease the cis people in our life, yeah.

AR: Yeah, yeah. So, the… that first conversation went pretty okay in that, I didn’t get the, “well… doom to you.” It was… a kind of like, “as long as nothing has to change for us, then, you know, we love you for who you are.” In that very strange, “we love you for who you are, as long as you are the thing we think you are, then it’s fine.”

TB: Yeah, exactly. That conditional “love,” yeah.

AR: Yeah, where then we had six… about six months of not ever talking about it. It was like, “we’re not discussing it.” Nothing changed on that front, and I didn’t expect it to. And as tragic and upsetting at the time as the divorce was, it really was like a catapult into, “okay, I’m fully doing it.” Like, if I’m gonna lose my marriage over this, like, surely by then, people will figure out, “oh, it is a big deal.”

TB: Yeah.

AR: It’s not something to just scoff at, and the potential consequences of that are not going to be nothing. So… even if I hadn’t been emotionally ready, and I probably would have delayed that, those serious conversations with my family for quite some time. Were it not for that… that just sent me straight into it. I was like, “well, if my whole life is changing, my whole life is changing, we’re starting over.” And I did.

TB: I’m sorry it was so rough for you, but I’m so glad that you made it through.

AR: Thank you, thank you.

TB: And you’r’re here as yourself, and that’s beautiful.

AR: I’m here! And my parents and I have started talking again in the last year.

TB: That’s great!

AR: And it’s, you know, turbulent, and as fraught as you’d expect it to be, but… like, progress is being made, I think, on both sides. So… I never would have said… you know, when I was writing Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know, I never would have thought, ever, ever in a million years, that there would be any kind of reconciliation. But we’re inching towards it, so, you know, there’s always hope.

TB: There’s always hope, yes, absolutely. Well, I want to get into talking about that book, but before we do, where can people find you online after listening?

AR: Oh, yes. I am occasionally on Instagram, just at my name, @AlexRitany. I have a Tumblr blog…

TB: Ooooh.

AR: Which is where the real… the real goofy stuff happens. ARitany is my username there. Other than that, I have a couple other accounts, but I am rarely there. So Instagram, Tumblr… those are the places.

TB: Excellent. Alright, so let’s get into talking about Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know and get listeners excited for it. And I thought to start off, maybe you could just tell people sort of what it’s about, give them the little pitch for it.

AR: Yeah, so Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know is about a boy waking up in a girl’s body, with no memories. And having one hundred days to figure out, like, where his real life is, like, figure out who he’s stuck inside of. And what is going on is the day that he’s stuck in repeats. So he has one hundred repeats of the same day, in this time loop, to figure out, you know, where is his real life? Like, who… where is he? Who has he been? Who will he be? And he, you know, eventually gets help from a handsome stranger who helps him. First outside the time loop, and then, spoiler, inside the time loop as well.

TB: Spoilers!

AR: Spoilers!

AR: That’s as far as I’ll get with spoilers, but yeah, that’s my pitch for it.

TB: Well, Susan and I were lucky enough to get an early copy to read, and I want to be careful of the way I word questions, because I don’t want to spoil anything. So, I want… let me start with something overly general in, sort of… where did the idea for this book come from?

AR: It came from… I’ve loved time loop stories forever. I wanted to… I think there’s… there’s no real way to talk about Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know without getting a little bit into spoiler territory. Aand I think, like… I will get a little bit into spoiler territory, because I think people who are tuning in here, who… any person, any trans person who’s read the book, has gone, “I know what’s going on here!” fairly quickly. And I honestly thought everyone was gonna… like, the whole point of this book is not the big plot twist of, like, “oh my goodness.” It’s like, it’s the journey. How did we get here?

TB: Yeah.

AR: And so I’ve been surprised. Some of my cis readers who have gotten advance copies have been like, “I didn’t see that coming.” I’m like, “How? How did you not get…” you know…

TB: They don’t have that perspective, yeah.

AR: Yeah. The draw to me was about, like, finding a different lens with which to talk about dysphoria and the experience of, you know, what some… some trans people have the experience of, kind of, “wrong body”.

TB: Yeah.

AR: And I put that in quotations. I didn’t necessarily actually have that experience myself of, you know, feeling like I was born wrong. It’s been more of a journey of building something that’s more right.

TB: Sure.

AR: But there is, I know, that experience of… especially once you realize you’re trans, you’re like, “Okay., the meat suit that I’m in is not feeling correct anymore.”

TB: Yeah.

AR: And I… I was struggling to describe that to some of my cis friends. Like, I don’t… literally don’t know how to explain. How do I explain to you what this is like? And that was when the kind of amnesia and when we get a “wrong body” came in. It’s like, what happens if you wake up and kind of, like, the first thing you know about yourself is, “I’m a dude!” And then you’re… as you’re moving through this space in the world, you’re realizing the body you’re in is not a dude’s body and people are addressing you as a girl. That is, to me… that’s a horror concept. And this book is not horror. I would describe it as contemporary, because of the kind of levity that I… I was like, “If I’m gonna get as distressing as this book can be, I’m gonna pack in some of the other light stuff as well. But putting that concept into a time loop, and adding the mystery, it was kind of all of those things… coming together all at once in, like, January 2024, where I was like, “I have to get this down. I have to get this down on paper right now.”

TB: Yeah.

AR: Or… or else!

TB: I’m glad that you are the one giving out those little spoilers, because then I will not get in trouble for it, so…

AR: (laughs) Exactly.

TB: But yeah, I feel like… when I was reading it, I identified so hard with the feeling, like, “every day is the same, and you don’t know how to get out of it, and you don’t know how to change it.” And… and you don’t even sometimes notice the passing of the time. Like, I had… when I was mired in my dysphoria before transition, I did a lot of dissociating that I didn’t even know I was doing.

AR: Yeah.

TB: And so I’ve lost so many memories, and I’ve lost so much time, and I feel like this book captures that really, really well.

AR: Thank you, thank you. Yeah, I think there is that kind of… pre-social, pre-medical, transition space where you’ve clocked that something’s not right

TB: Yeah.

AR: But you’re just wheel spinning. Because for whatever reason, you can’t… either you’ve literally, for safety reasons, can’t, or for other social reasons, can’t take that first step and actually… or… or even haven’t yet decided that it’s worth it.

TB: Yeah, or even gotten to the point where you can accept that about yourself, you know? It took me so long to get there, because I didn’t have a frame of reference. I didn’t know trans people were something that existed, that someone could be, for so long.

AR: Yes.

TB: And so, yeah, you end up getting stuck there. But I also really love what you said about your cis friends reading it. Because a thought that occurred to me when I was… as I was going through it. Over and over again, I was like, “this is a great book to give to cis people who don’t know what it’s like to be trans.” And I feel like it could open their minds in such… good ways.

AR: That’s the hope. That’s the hope. I wanted to write something that is… that resonates for trans people, but is really accessible to cis people who haven’t ever had to think about it. Because, yeah, I know there are some… there are some books that I’ve read that have been, you know, trans fiction, where I get into it. I’m like, “I am so here. I am right here.” And then I think about, like, trying to explain it to somebody else. Like, okay, you have to put aside… and I know so many people struggle when they’re reading to put aside their own experiences, to just be open. Come in open-mindedly. So, yeah, it’s… I feel as though I am always on a journey of trying to explain myself in the most clearly articulated way, and this book is definitely a part of that.

TB: Yeah, yeah. What was your reaction to it, as our token cis person? To the… to the way, like, the sort of awakening to dysphoria and everything happened in the book? Like, I mean, you’ve gone through all of this with me, so you’re very familiar with what I’ve been through, so was it… how did it impact you?

SB: I mean, it was obvious for me.

AR: Yeah. Yeah.

TB: Okay.

TB: You caught onto it right away, because you have the experience of going through my whole transition with me.

SB: Yeah, yeah, I could definitely see the… the sameness of going through the days and not really wanting to push on the edges of anything.

TB: Yeah.

SB: Like, that definitely makes sense.

TB: You could relate to what I’ve been through in there, is what you’re saying?

SB: I guess, yeah. I mean, I didn’t know at the time.

TB: Sure, I didn’t either.

SB: Which is a hard thing. Yeah. That’s always the hard thing, is not knowing…

TB: Yeah.

SB: …at the time that you were struggling so much…

TB: Sure.

SB: …with this thing that I didn’t know.

TB: Yeah. But it’s like, because I didn’t know what it was at the time.

SB: I know! And there’s no way I could have known.

TB: Right, yeah. Yeah. So… but you were… you were great, you were… you… well, I… okay, I’m gonna get into spoilers, I’m gonna shut up. So, like, as you mentioned, this book features a teen boy trapped in a teen girl’s body, and I just want to ask if you were mysteriously drawn to body swap stories for your entire life before realizing you weren’t cis? Because I sure was, “there were no signs.”

AR: What? What? No, I… one of the books… I guess I was a voracious reader as a kid. So I read so much. I was obsessed with one magical wizard book series, which shall not be named…

TB: Mmm.

AR: …as a child, before the author came out as terrible.

TB: Yes.

AR: I was so obsessed with those books that I had to read ten other books… it was, like, a law in my house. I had to read ten other books in between each book from that series that I was reading, because I was so obsessed with them. So as a result, I was, like, a voracious, prolific reader. And there are very few books, as a result, that stick out that I remember being like, whoa. And one of them was… I was a very young adult reading Every Day by David Levithan, which is that book where the person wakes up in a different body every day.

SB: Oh!

AR: Which I think we actually used as a comp for Maybe Tomorrow I’ll know, when we were trying to sell it, because it was that thing that intrigued me. It’s like, what is… what would… what would it be like to be you?

TB: Yeah, right?

AR: Yeah, in somebody else’s body.

AR: So, yeah, for sure.

TB: It’s… well, it’s wild, too, when I look back at my writing that I did before knowing and coming out. There were so many instances of dudes suddenly appearing in a woman’s body, being like, “what is this? What happened?” I’m like, come on, wake up to what you’re doing! Like, subconsciously, you know, I was going through it, and I couldn’t even see that’s what I was doing, so…

AR: Yeah.

TB: Yeah.

AR: I still find myself doing that, where I’m like, this is a cool, unrelated concept, I’m gonna… I’m gonna think about that. I started writing about a doppelganger in an adult fantasy project that I’m working on, and it took someone else being like, “so… and that’s interesting for you?” And I was like, oh, yeah, it is interesting to me for the gender reasons.

TB: Yeah.

AR: I thought it was interesting for the cool fantasy reasons, but it’s always the gender.

TB: It always comes back to that, it seems, yeah.

AR: Yeah.

TB: Well, there were so many moments in this book that I identified with as a queer and trans person, and it feels so much like we never get enough of that kind of authentic representation in our stories. And so, like… I’ve experienced this a lot, but I wanted to get your perspective on it. Have you had any difficulties in getting repped or finding a publisher to pick up a book like this, in these horrible political times that we’re in?

AR: Well, it’s interesting because with this book, I had… I will be transparent, a fairly unpleasant time with my debut novel. It was a really tricky situation for, like, a perfect storm of bad experiences. And my… my debut is not queer. I mean, those are bi-for-bi characters, but it’s an M-F romance.

TB: Sure.

AR: And… so it’s not specifically in the queer space, but… I was, with my representation at the time, trying to get any traction with the stuff that I was starting to write, which by that point was all queer.

TB: Yeah.

AR: And spinning wheels, getting absolutely nowhere, and… you know, we… we were just not a compatible, creative match, which I eventually figured out, and we parted ways right after my debut came out. But it was on a very discouraging note. Like, I had just worked so hard to get my name legally changed, and… because I wanted that in the copyright.

TB: Sure.

AR: I was like, if my copyright… if my deadname is in the copyright of this book, I’m gonna freak out. I’m going to freak out, like… I didn’t have the resources at the time to, like, open an LLC, get that done.

TB: Yeah yeah.

AR: So I was just like, I have to… I have to get this done, and the timeline was so crazy tight. It happened, like, right before we were at the printers. I was like, I could finally provide the documentation. And I kept my agent updated on, like, all of that stuff. And right after the book came out, it had such soft sales that she said, “You know, if you are ever gonna write again, you probably should consider writing under a pen name.”

TB: Ugh.

AR: Are you kidding me? This is the name I, like… I worked really hard for this name.

TB: Yeah.

AR: That’s my only way forward. And I had… I went into the process of writing this book with such a dismal, like, “No one’s ever gonna publish any of… anything I write again at all, let alone the weird queer stuff that I really want to get into.” Like, I want to write weird trans books…

TB: Yeah!

AR: …it’s just not going to happen. Which, I think, contributed to it being such a raw book, where I was, like, unflinchingly just writing whatever. I went, “Absolutely nobody on planet Earth is ever gonna read this book, because it’s so niche, I’m never gonna get published again, blah, blah, blah.” I was, like, really throwing myself a legendary pity party, right? And I parted ways with my agent, and I was just like, “Well, I guess I’ll just see what happens if I just really go for it.” And I did, and wrote this book. I finished it and was like, “Well, that’s another manuscript. Cool. I guess I’ll see what happens.” And went into trying to get literary representation with such a laissez-faire attitude. And… have such a miraculously positive story from that, because I got representation within two months of starting to query, and we sold this book at auction three weeks after I signed with my agent.

SB: Wow!

AR: So, it was… it was such a refreshing, validating, exciting journey. And, like, I ended up with Norton Young Readers, who have been such a fantastic home for this and for my upcoming books, because they are so adamantly supportive of, like, the heart of what the books are about. You know, my editor is fantastic.

TB: I love that.

AR: Amazing. So it was… it completely defied all of my expectations and, you know, flew in the face of the anti-trans legislation we’ve been seeing.

TB: Yeah.

AR: So I was like, oh my goodness. I hear all the time about publishers, you know, rolling back their support…

SB: Yup.

AR: …of marginalized stories, generally speaking, across the board. So I really was nervous going in, and… they really… my agent went to bat for me, my editor went to bat for me, and the team has been so supportive. It has been… like, I don’t think about it too often, or I get extremely emotional. It’s like…

TB: Wow.

AR: Never thought that would happen, and it is such a blessing. Such a blessing.

TB: Yeah, we’ve, like, had struggles in our TV writing and our comic writing with getting trans representation out there, you know, and it’s always so hard to get it past the cis gatekeepers. But one of our graphic novels was just announced. It’s a YA rom-com called Just Another Summer.

AR: Yeah, I saw that! Congratulations!

TB: Thank you! But when we got the gig, we asked for two things, and we thought we would get one. We said, “Can we make one character queer? and can we make the lead, the romantic lead, a trans man?” And we’re like, “If we’re lucky, we’ll get one.” Right? And they gave us both. They said we could do both. And that happened in the book, and then there was reshuffling as the book was just about complete, and we lost our editor. And I was like, oh no. What’s the first thing that always gets axed? It’s the queer and trans stuff, right? And it still went through, they just…

SB: There was a lot of anxiety.

TB: There was a lot of anxiety, and they just announced it, and that company, Maverick and Mad Cave, has been so supportive of the transness and the queerness in this story. And they have are other books that are like that, and I love it so much, and it means so much to me. But it shouldn’t feel like it’s rare, you know?

AR: Yeah.

TB: Like it’s… we’ve had so many struggles with so many places.

SB: Even in places that say they want queer content, they don’t want trans content.

TB: Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah.

AR: Yeah, or, you know, they want queer content, but not the main characters.

TB: Ah, yep.

AR: Yeah, no, it’s really been amazing seeing, you know…now we have two examples of publishing professionals who are… what I hope for is, trailblazing the way.

SB: Yeah.

TB: Yeah.

AR: Showing what’s possible. You know, we see… people do want to read trans stories. And, you know, seeing fellow trans authors make bestseller lists makes me so, so happy.

TB: Yeah!

AR: In a way… sometimes I see other people on the bestseller list, and I get a little salty. We all have been there, where we’re like, “Oh, you’re succeeding?” But I just have this, complete joy for trans people making the bestseller list, because I’m like, “Yes! Yes! This is great!” Like, Petra Lord, who just published Queen of Faces, which is a YA fantasy, has been on the New York Times bestseller list three weeks in a row now. Which is so amazing, it’s like a trans femme YA fantasy. It’s like… you don’t see those on the bestseller lists, usually.

TB: Yeah.

SB: I’m writing that down right now.

AR: Yeah, I have my copy, it’s gorgeous. I haven’t started it yet, but I’m so excited, because it’s so cool to see all of us out there thriving.

TB: Yeah, yeah, yeah!

AR: We’re not all thriving, but…

TB: Each one of us that gets any kind of a win, it lifts all the rest of us up and makes the chances of others having their projects made, rise, so…

AR: Yeah, exactly.

TB: I love that. Well, did you have any last thoughts you wanted to share about the book before we wrap up?

AR: No, I think… I hope it is… validating for any trans kids who find it. I hope they realize that there are… that their transness does not make them too complicated for their own romance, their own life. There’s certainly complicatedness happening in Laurie’s life as he is navigating this romance with somebody who keeps forgetting him and is falling in love with him in the wrong body. That’s complicated.

TB: It is. Relatable.

AR: Yeah! And so I just… I hope that it resonates for queer kids, and I hope that the cis people who read it, you know, really sit with it. I got a review just recently, from someone saying that the book prompted a conversation between her and her husband about what what… how they would respond if their children ever came out as trans, which was so… gratifying, and exciting to me to see, because I had not even been thinking about the parents that might read the book.

TB: Yeah, yeah! That’s one of the best things about my book that I wrote about The Matrix films, and their inherent transness… is that I’ve heard from a lot of trans people that were touched and impacted by it, but the cis parents of trans kids that have written me and said, “I understand my trans kids better because of this.” I’m just like… that is…

AR: Oh!

TB: Right? Like, then that kid is gonna get better support from a parent who understands them better. That is the best thing in the world, so I’m so glad that you’re getting that, too.

AR: Yes. Yeah, it’s been a beautiful experience, and I can’t wait to see how it lands with readers once it’s out.

TB: And that is very soon.

AR: Yeah, yeah, April 7th, so…

TB: April 7th! Thank you for being here, Alex.

AR: Thank you guys so much for having me, it’s been an absolute pleasure.

TB: Friends, I really loved Maybe Tomorrow I’ll Know, and I think both trans and cis folks will get a whole lot from it. As we said, it releases April 7th, 2026, and you can pre-order it now. It is a sweet, grounded sci-fi story, with some fabulous and authentic representation, and we need so much more of that.

Especially now.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com

SUPERMAN’S TRANS AFFIRMATION

Note: a version of this week’s essay first appeared in the Everyone You’ve Ever Met is Beautiful: Essays on James Gunn’s Superman zine.

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! This week we’re going to talk about one of my favorite things in the entire world: Superman. And the quiet, powerful, message that came with his new movie, written and directed by James Gunn. Here comes: SUPERMAN’S TRANS AFFIRMATION.

I’ve been a Superman fan for my entire life, or at least as much of it as I can remember. I’ve lost so many memories due to dissociating my way through life with GENDER DYSPHORIA, I don’t even know how much of my pre-transition life I don’t know, y’know?

But through it all Superman was there, bringing me comfort and hope and joy when little else could. It was likely my dad that spurred my love of Supes, possibly because he had little Tilly convinced he was Superman. And then losing him at the incredibly young age that I did, in the way that I did (a way Superman would’ve been safe from), probably caused my little heart to grab onto the character even more. For a bit more on that, see the essay on PARENTS WHO WILL NEVER KNOW THE REAL YOU (my dad). How does this relate to James Gunn’s Superman, Tilly? I’ll get there, stick with me.

That the character himself has to deal with the loss of his own parents probably just buried him in my heart that much deeper. There’s no rooting him out, he’s there to stay. 

As I grew into adulthood, the character became even more important to me because of what he represents. He believes in the goodness of others, he’s kind, he’s a charming dork, and he truly cares about people. That is his greatest superpower. Sure he can fly and carry buildings and is invulnerable and has bzzyew bzzyew laser eyes and freeze breath and x-ray vision and so much more… but even still, his unbreakable belief in hope and compassion and that people can change for the better if they want to? That’s my entire heart on a platter.

That’s the exact same reason I love Star Trek, by the way (see A TRANS RE-WEDDING for more on that), but this essay isn’t about Starfleet and the Federation.

In my essay on THE PAST AND WHY IT HAUNTS US, you can see a little Superman truck that is one of the only surviving pieces of my childhood, a happy little thing I have no bad memories associated with (which given my childhood is something of a miracle). Like my fandom, it’s been with me for my whole life. Okay but Tilly, this still doesn’t relate to James Gunn’s Superman? I’m getting there, just trust me! You need context!

It was only in recording the podcast episode for that essay where my wife Susan hit upon another reason I likely love Superman… his secret identity. Everyone thinks he’s a man but in reality he is not like other people and is treated differently because of it.

How this never occurred to me, especially given how introspective I am, and in all the work I’ve done in writing over two hundred fifty weekly essays for Trans Tuesdays, is fairly astonishing to me. I guess he’d been with me so long, I just never thought to examine him any closer. 

Now Supes varies a lot based on who’s writing, drawing, editing, or directing his comics, movies, books, etc. Different eras of the comics have wildly different interpretations. But even if you’re not familiar with Superman comics, just look at his recent mass media appearances on screen… Zack Snyder’s Man of Steel (and its follow-ups, a grittier, more grounded “adult” take), the CW show Superman & Lois (a family drama that’s about him as a father and husband as much, or even more, than it’s about superheroes), and James Gunn’s recent reboot, Superman (bright, vibrant, and maybe the most “comic booky” comic book movie ever made). See? I finally mentioned Gunn’s movie! I am getting there!

I’m not going to debate the merits of any of those interpretations, I’m merely trying to illustrate how different the character can be based on who’s telling the story. Each of them has things I love, each of them has things I don’t. No Superman adaptation is ever going to be perfect for me, because I have my own ideas of what that would be. That’s not to say any of them are “bad,” I just have my own preferences for parts of his mythos and how I like to see them portrayed.

I mention all of that only to say that sometimes Supes is looked up to, but he’s also often feared, or vilified, because of who he is. Lex Luthor, a powerful billionaire and Supes’ greatest adversary, does exactly this in Gunn’s film, which sure does draw targeted comparisons to a certain musky billionaire in the real world.

But in nearly every version, Supes has to hide part of who he is from the world. Most often, for the past forty years or so, it’s Clark who’s the real person. Superman is just what he does. When he’s alone with Lois, or his friends, or his parents, that’s the real person. Which is not to say “Superman” is a facade, but it’s a way he’s different that he has to hide from most of the world.

It’s like a trans person going BOYMODE/GIRLMODE so cis bigots will leave us alone. Like a trans person having to stay closeted because their friends and family might not accept them, or might kick them out of their homes, or might react with violence. The parallels are many. See COMING OUT AS TRANS for more on the nuances of all that.

When I saw Gunn’s Superman, it was the first time I was going to experience a new movie about my favorite characters (Clark and Lois, they are a pair for a good reason) as the real me. With every other version, when I was first introduced to them, it was prior to my coming out as trans and living my truth.

I knew how much the character meant to me because of who he is. I knew how tied he was to the pain I will always feel over losing my Dad. And I knew how much I not only identified with the way he leads with kindness and compassion, but how much his having to hide part of himself from the world resonated with me as a trans woman who had to hide her truth and her femininity from the world for most of her life (because whenever even a hint of it displayed, I was punished for it).

All of which brings us to Gunn’s Superman, and the point of this essay. See?! We’re here! I wouldn’t lie to you.

I watched the movie at the official DC Comics screening on the WB lot. Susan and I were invited. For reasons.

Me on the Warner Bros lot in front of their theater, showing Superman, with the Superman-shield wrapped WB water tower in the background

I teared up, like I do every time I see the big guy on screen. And it knocked me over like I was hit by a Kryptonian flying at mach 5 when we got to the scene with Clark’s parents, specifically when he’s sitting on the stoop with Jonathan, who says this:

Parents aren’t for telling their children who they’re supposed to be. We are here to give y’all tools to help you make fools of yourselves all on your own. Your choices, Clark. Your actions. That’s what makes you who you are. Tell you something, son… I couldn’t be more proud of you.

Let me just hit you with part of that one more time:

Parents aren’t for telling their children who they’re supposed to be.

As a kid who was trans but didn’t know it, and was constantly told I was a boy, had to be a boy, had to act like a boy, “stop putting that bow in your hair, that’s not what boys do,” that line scooped out my entire heart and showed it to me.

In the comics, Superman has interacted with trans characters multiple times, though I’m not sure he ever has in live action (I can’t remember if he and Dreamer ever met on Supergirl, or during the CW’s Crisis on Infinite Earths adaptation).

But I’ve never seen, heard, felt that kind of trans affirmation in Superman media directly on screen before. I’m not sure it had ever happened, since the character’s first live-action appearance when Kirk Alyn played him in 1948. That’s a long time to go without, though technically we’re still without because this line wasn’t directly about trans people, was it?

Or was it? Because the entirety of Gunn’s Superman is commenting on the present state of our world without naming names. Just look at this depiction of Lex Luthor, and how there’s a military conflict where white oppressors invade a country of non-white people. We know what both of those things are commenting on, even though the movie doesn’t state it outright. Is it impossible, then, to think that “parents aren’t for telling their kids who they’re supposed to be” is about the way some parents, and most of our society, treats trans people? Trans kids? See TRANS KIDS 1: FACTS AND DANGERS and TRANS KIDS 2: TRANS FLIGHT AND THE INTAKE EXAM for more, if you need it.

That line would mean a ton coming from Superman, but that it came from one of the people that taught him his kindness and compassion? And it was directed at him, thus further strengthening the comparison between this beacon of good and compassion and trans people?

My scooped out heart was now a puddle on the floor. It melted me all over.

Because this is the movie saying, at its core, at the core of Superman himself, is the belief that we discover and decide who we are, and nobody else gets to tell us who we have to be.

Even if they think we’re making “fools of ourselves,” their job is to support us even if they don’t understand, and then they can try to understand. For more on that in a somewhat related fashion, see CIS SPOUSAL AND PARTNER SUPPORT.

Our choices, our actions make us who we are. We’re trans because we discover we are, and choose to tell you. And your job as a cis person who cares about other human beings is to realize how difficult the world makes it for us to do that (even though it shouldn’t have to be difficult at all), and to support us through it.

I can only hope, one day, for more straightforward surface-level trans representation and support from Superman, both from the character and in all his media appearances.

But what we’ve got now, right here in front of us, is Gunn’s Superman being the most trans-affirming superhero movie, possibly ever.

Trans people choose to be our true selves, and we put that choice into action and live authentic lives.

And Superman is telling you, cis folks, that your choices and actions make you who you are, too. You can choose to be like Clark, and treat us with kindness, compassion, and support, or you can choose to give into propaganda and hate and uphold all the systems that oppress us.

Those are your options. 

And Superman wants to know: who do you choose to be?

Me in my James Gunn's Superman tee, making the "i love you" hand sign

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com


ADDENDUM 4/10/26

Thanks to the podcast listener who commented on YouTube to tell me about the progress pride flag-colored sign in the baseball stadium. This is where I remind you that everything in a film is a choice.

A sign during the baseball stadium fight in Superman (2025), that reads, in progress pride flag colors, "Meteors are for Everyone."

INTERVIEW WITH JADZIA AXELROD ABOUT GALAXY

NOTE: This week’s update is a transcription of a live interview done as part of the Tilly’s Trans Tuesdays podcast. Special thanks to Nicole Lynn Ó Catháin for the transcription! (Look for her at Seattle Reign women’s soccer matches – she’s the one waving the trans pride flag with the Valkyrie crown!)

Tilly Bridges: Welcome to Tilly’s Trans Tuesdays. This week, we interview Jadzia Axelrod, a fellow comic writer who’s authored some graphic novels that have become easy favorites of mine, and they’ll be favorites of yours, too, if you know what’s good for you.

TB: Hi, I’m Tilly Bridges, your host, and I’m joined by my writing partner, my best friend, my wife, our token cis representation, the only fellow graphic novel author I live with, Susan Bridges.

Susan Bridges: Hello!

TB: Our guest this week, as you likely surmised from the intro, because you’re very smart, is Jadzia Axelrod, author of Galaxy: The Prettiest Star, Galaxy As The World Falls Down, Hawk Girl: Once Upon a Galaxy, and Justice League Intergalactic for DC Comics, the DC Book of Pride for DK, stories in the Sharp Wit and the Company of Women and When We Were Young anthologies, as well as comics for Tor, Quirk Books, and Epic! Books. She lives in Philadelphia, where she cooks needlessly elaborate meals for her wonderful wife and delightful child. Welcome, Jadzia!

Jadzia Axelrod: Oh, thank you for having me! It’s great to be here!

TB: Okay, so before we get into talking about your fabulous writing, I wanted to ask you about your fabulous cooking, because not only are those meals elaborate, they are tremendously well photographed.

JA: Thank you!

TB: They look like shots from a cookbook, and they always make me starve. So, how did you get into cooking, and how do you photograph them so well? What’s the appeal to all that for you?

JA: Well, let me answer the second one first. My wife is a professional photographer. Years ago, when we both worked at a newspaper, she would take pictures for the food reviewer and so she would go to restaurants after the reviewer had been there in secret, and go there and tell them that she was there to take photos of very specific dishes. So they would do it up real nice and fancy like they would never do if you were just ordering it, and then she would take pictures. So I learned all the tricks watching her, because of course I went ’cause then I got to eat the food.

TB: Of course!

JA: Right? And it was win-win. So I learned all the tricks on how to shoot food really nice just by watching her do it for months and months, years. 

SB: Wow.

JA: So, I’ve been taking my own pictures, got all those secrets. As far as interest in cooking, it’s been something I’ve always done. I’ve had a love of it since as a child that continues to this day. I’m really into eating and that – 

TB: Same! (laughs)

JA: – goes hand in hand with like, well, if you want to eat really good food, you should learn how to cook really good food, and then you will always have really good food on hand. As a result, we are raising our child in an ingredient house, which I didn’t realize I was doing until someone pointed it out. Which is fine but it means that now they have to also learn how to cook, which they’re learning and had a passion for fora while. We did a thing where they made dinner on Mondays, which was amazing.

TB: That’s great!

JA: Yeah! We have some kids’ cookbooks for them. It’s really wonderful.

TB: I remember one of the first times our kid cooked for us and I ate it, told him it was good and the look on his face was the most beautiful thing.

JA: Aww.

TB: Yeah! Does it scratch the same creative itch for you as writing?

JA: No, it’s completely different.

TB: Okay.

JA: (laughs)

TB: That’s fine.

JA: Which is why I like it. Cooking is very restorative. This is how I decompress at the end of the day – by cooking something. Which is not how cooking is for everyone and I recognize that. For some people, it’s just another chore. But for me, it is almost a meditative act of restoration.

TB: That’s really cool.

JA: Which is not writing. Writing is something else.

TB: It sure is. I know there are a lot of professional chefs who approach it from a creative standpoint, sort of the same way we do writing. It’s wild that it can be so very different for everyone who does it. I don’t know. You cook a lot, how do you feel? Is it creative in the same way to you or is it….

SB: No!

TB: No.

SB: It’s definitely different and it depends on what you’re making cause cooking and baking are completely different.

TB: Sure.

SB: I find….I just feel like I’m letting our child down because trying to teach him, it’s impossible for me to keep everything in my head at the same time. So, actually, this Thanksgiving, I have him help on these occasions, but I definitely put the pumpkin pie in the oven and then realized I had not added sweetener to it, of any kind. Then I had to pull it out and dump it in and be like I’m gonna do this, and it’s gonna probably be ok. 

TB: That’s kinda like writing. I’m just saying.         

SB: I guess it is. It was fine.

JA: But when you’re teaching someone, you do have to follow the rules. And something that I’ve been having problems with… I can eyeball now a teaspoon, a tablespoon, all of that. I don’t need to measure. But they can’t. They just started. I have to bring out the measuring spoons so that they can learn to eyeball it later.

SB: It changes your process and then it throws you off 

JA: It does!

SB: Cause you’re like, wait, this isn’t how I normally do it. And then because brains are like this – like, you changed one thing-

TB: And now I’m gonna forget everything you did. Yes. Thanks, brain.

SB: Thanks, brains.

TB: All right, well, for you, what has been the best thing about transitioning?

JA: Oh! I used so much brainpower trying to deny being trans. 

TB: Yeah.

JA: There was so much of my brain that was spent self-policing and self-editing, and constantly being outside of myself in the fear that anyone would realize or recognize what was going on. So to be free from that, and to be able to use all of my brain, all of the time, for everything that I do, from writing to parenting to cooking, to all of that, just to be constantly present in a way that I never was before has been magical.

TB: I feel like it made me a better writer, a better spouse, a better parent. It opened up the whole world to me in new ways. I discovered I’m kinda extroverted when I thought I was introverted – no, I just didn’t want to be perceived as that person. And it’s so wild, like now, I love trying new foods and before, I never could because it was too much. I couldn’t process it because I was dealing with so much at the time. I was like, “I can’t handle anything else. No. Same stuff all the time.” It’s an absolutely wild thing discovering what the world really is when you can be in it. What? You have a look.

SB: I’m just thinking of how your family could not cook at all.

TB: Well, that’s a different story.

SB: Like, 4 or 5 recipes that I’ve never heard of in my life.

TB: Yes, if it didn’t come from a box or a can, my mother didn’t cook it.

SB: I would tell you that’s not a recipe, that’s a list of pantry ingredients. That is not, y’know, okay.

TB: Well, on the flip side of that, what has been the worst, or maybe most difficult part for you?

JA: I mean, it’s all… a lot of it’s been very great, I want to preface. So this is… this is a difficult question. I think in, like, the first handful of years, like that first five or six6 or four years, it was really difficult because the hormones hadn’t quite kicked in yet.

TB: Yeah.

JA: Right? And, like, I’m… I’m a large person, I have broad shoulders…

TB: Same.

JA: And especially when I was starting out and there was no curves to speak of, like, it was definitely a male body. It was a male body that was trying very hard to present in a feminine way, and that, I think, led to a lot of confusion on the parts of people I interacted with, as far as to what box to put this person in, “Do I relate to them as a man, or do I relate to them as a woman? I don’t have a middle one.” And now that I am more clearly a woman, I don’t get that as much, but there was a long time of just not being interacted with at all. People avoiding me, or interacting with me as little as possible, because the social roles that they were used to no longer applied in that scenario. And this was really difficult, at that time in my transition. It was really difficult to be early on, and my kid, as a new mom, and wanting to connect with other moms, and them not knowing how to relate to me.

Not to say that no one did. I did… I do have some very wonderful friends that I met who are mothers, are still friends to this day, and I cherish them so much. But, like, it was really hard, and very difficult, and very isolating, in a way that I didn’t clock until it started to not be. And then I was like, whoa, things were bad, and I didn’t even realize, because so much else was going on.

TB: Yeah, right.

JA: But it’s good now. So, when my presentation caught up to my identity, things got a lot better. And now, I was just at the beach, just hanging out in a bikini. And, like, another woman came up and just talked to me like, yeah, we’re just two women on the beach, just having a chit-chat, talking about her vacation. And it was just a really nice moment of her, like, deciding what box I was in, and then treating me as such, which was correct and wonderful. And, like, and that’s what happens now, but it took… it took a while to get there, and that’s part of why those early transition years are so difficult.

TB: Yeah, I think it’s extra hard, because, like, for all of us who transition as adults, we feel like we’ve been waiting so long. And then you start, and it’s still not what you want it to be, and it takes so long to get there. It’s just such a slow process, so…

JA: Yeah, we all want to skip to the end.

TB: We do! We want to jump right through. Okay, well, let’s get into what you’re here to talk about, your comic writing, and very specifically, your Galaxy graphic novels. And I don’t want to be too spoilery for folks who haven’t read them yet, but Galaxy is an alien with her own mythos and culture that comes to Earth and sort of integrates into the larger DC Comics universe. And so I wanted you to sort of tell us a little bit about how you created her, and where she came from as a concept.

JA: Well, that kind of story is something that’s been kicking around in my head for a long time. And then I got the opportunity to pitch some stuff to DC at the start of their YA line.

Because this was… the original pitch was so long ago. They were just starting the YA line and, I talked to the editors of DC, and sent them like 4 pitches. And then right at the bottom, I put what would become Galaxy, even though they specifically told me not to pitch original characters. Because that was not what they were doing, but it was like, I have to put this in, or…

TB: It doesn’t hurt if you just put one in there, right? 

JA: Right, it’s at the bottom, it doesn’t count.

SB: You probably didn’t read that anyway, right? I mean…..

JA: Yeah, it’s 2 sentences. Like, it’s fine, there’s other stuff with Superman in it, you’ll be fine. So when I put that in, it was just something that I wanted to do and I’ve kind of been poking at for a while. And so, to get this opportunity was something that I couldn’t waste.

So I did that, and then that was the one they picked. So then I had to develop it more than just an idea of trans alien on Earth and like… actually pull it together. Thankfully, I had a really good guide in that with the editors, especially Sarah Miller, who edited the book, and, like, really kind of bringing that whole thing into focus. But it was really just, like, something that coalesced with the pitch. But beyond that, it was something that I had been poking and prodding for a while because, like, I’d always felt like an alien because of being trans.

TB: Relatable.

JA: Yeah, right. And, like, so that seemed like a natural metaphor to put in there, and having recently transitioned when I pitched, which is, like… I think I’d only been trans, like, a year, if even. The life of Galaxy and the life of my transition, very similar. So to have those emotions, they were still very raw, and still very real, and it was still very easy to tap into that. 

TB: Yeah, I feel that really shows in the first book, because I read it not too long after I had come out, I think it was, like, a couple years, and so it was all very fresh for me, too. And it felt like it was my story, almost, you know? And so I love that.

JA: I love that too.

TB: Yeah, well, is this what you always hoped for her? I mean, I know it was just sort of a nebulous concept, but, like, did you always want her to be part of a larger, like, existing superhero world, rather than off on her own?

JA: I never thought she would be. I mean, I wanted to, sure. 

TB: It’s something that rarely ever happens anymore, yeah.

JA: I was 100% certain that the book was gonna flop, that I had somehow conned them into letting me tell this story, and then no one was gonna buy it. But it was okay, because I had had my shot, I had done the story I wanted to do, that was my DC Comics experience, and I was better for it. And it would never happen again, and that character certainly would never be used ever, ever again. So the fact that the book became a hit, and that they wanted to move her into the main DCU, was a surprise. One I was ready for, absolutely excited to do it, but it was not something that I even allowed myself to imagine. I was 100% certain that nothing was going to happen with that book after it was published.

TB: Yeah, it feels….

JA: And I was wrong.

TB: You sure were. It feels like such a rare gem. Like, new characters in, like, the DC and Marvel Universe, they’re so rare. And when they come up, they’re usually directed by editorial, perhaps, or part of a larger thing. So to have an original creation of yours become part of that universe is just, like, so cool. That’s, like, the dream! You’re living it. It’s so good.

JA: Yeah, and it’s… it is really unusual. Like, I was talking to a marketing person not long after it was published, and she’s like, “I’ve never seen an audience come around a new character like this before. That never happens.” So, like, right off the bat, like, she had fans and people who were loving the book and loving the character, which is amazing. Superhero comics in particular are kind of a backwards-looking medium. We want the stuff that we read when we were kids, but for adults now. And that’s still… that’s very much the thing that goes on now. And so to have a new character who is not connected to an existing character in any way, beyond some feints at Superman… it’s really astounding to have her, one, exist, and be so embraced by the fan community, and also editorial, and to have her be in Hawkgirl, and then in Justice League, and it’s really wonderful, and I’m really fortunate to have it all happen.

TB: It’s the coolest thing.

JA: It’s pretty great.

TB: Did you have to change any of the things that you intended to do with her to make her fit in the larger DC universe?

JA: No.

TB: No?

JA: No. 

TB: That’s amazing.

JA: Yeah, we’re in a in a particularly writer-focused era of DC, which is really nice. A lot of the writers, not just me, but other people working at DC, are given the space to do the stories that they want to tell, which has been really amazing. So hopefully that continues, and I get to tell all the Galaxy stories I want to tell. But yeah, I haven’t had to change anything about it, and I think there’s a lot of resistance to… in general, and we saw this with Tim Drake coming out, there’s a lot of resistance to these characters, even if their sexuality’s been hinted at for decades, to have it be explicit creates some backlash, because that’s not how people imagine it. They miss the hints, they miss stuff, because that’s not what they were reading.

And so to have a character like Galaxy, who was very trans and very queer right off- right from jump, that’s the whole point of the book. It’s no big deal to have her then make out with her girlfriend in Hawkgirl, because she already did that in the YA book. Why shouldn’t she do that in the regular one?

TB: And more!

JA: And more! Yeah, we did a lot in that YA book, so, like, anything we do in the superhero thing, we’ve already covered that ground, so…

TB: Yeah!

JA: And that’s been really great.

TB: It’s great that you were able to do that, though, like, from the start. Because, you know, we have experience writing in larger universes with things, and whenever you try to take an established character and reveal something new about them, that maybe you didn’t know ahead of time, you get accused of changing the characters, right? You know, like… we would approach editors and be like, what if this character has actually been a trans woman all along, and you didn’t know, because nothing in her story that was ever revealed said that she was cis? You just assumed she was. You know, the presumption of cisness. And they’re like, “no, you can’t change the character.” We’re like, technically, that’s not a change. It’s just a fact you didn’t know. Maybe she also hates pizza. You didn’t know that either. Now you do. It’s just another fact that you didn’t know. But they don’t always see it that way.

SB: But we digress.

TB: All right, for anyone listening, maybe who has not read Galaxy: The Prettiest Star, or maybe doesn’t even usually read comics or graphic novels, do you want to give them the sort of soft pitch for the book?

JA: Oh, sure! Yeah, so Galaxy: The Prettiest Star is about Taylor Barzelay, who is a sparkly space princess…

TB: Yes she is!

JA: ….whose planet was overrun, and she is hiding out on Earth. In Galaxy: The Prettiest Star, she is disguised as a human. She’s also disguised as a boy, because she was assigned male at birth. And as the story goes on, she meets the new girl in town, Kat Silverberg. They have a relationship, and that disguise becomes harder and harder to keep up. And eventually, she reveals herself as her cool, sparkly space princess alien self, with the superpowers that come along with it, because it’s a DC Comics story, and all aliens have superpowers. And… and that’s pretty much the… what happens in Galaxy: The Prettiest Star. What’s fun is that in Galaxy: As the World Falls Down, we get to move beyond the coming out story.

TB: Yeah!

JA: And talk about, like, what do you do after you come out, and how do you find your community once you come out? Which is a story that we don’t often get. We always… we’ve gotten a lot… I don’t want to say we’ve gotten a lot, because there’s still not that many queer stories…

TB: Yeah, sadly.

JA: Especially trans coming out stories, right? So, like, of the trans stories we get, most of them are focused on the coming out. So it was nice to tell a story that was not about that, but about what happens after.

TB: Yeah, and she’s got a really unique… both visual design, but, like, power set, too. Like, I’ve not seen a character like that before, and it’s hard to come up with brand new powers you haven’t seen before.

JA: Boy is it ever! That was one of the things I had to do, in addition to create her own alien world and make it be different than anything else that DC already had going on, but also give her a power set that was not just copying someone else. So to have her be someone who can, like, perceive and manipulate the energies around her was neat, and a very powerful power to do. But also a nice kind of metaphor as far as, like, being a trans person and being very aware of, like, the way the energy changes when you’re in a room. Being aware of the microaggressions that someone else might not see or sense.

And so to have that metaphor be locked into her powers in that way, and to make her sensitive in that way, but in a way that then allowed her to take control of that sensitivity. And it’s like, yes, she’s aware of the things that are around her, and also she can change that, and make that to suit her, was a really fun power fantasy. So it made for a really fun power set.

TB: Yeah. Well, I want to add that in addition to your pitch for Galaxy there, that when I first read the first book, I loved it so much that I posted about it, way back on the bad site, Twitter, and I went and found my post, because I have my old archive. And I wrote: “it touched my heart in specific trans ways that so little does, and that people should hire more of us trans creators, and if I’d had this book as a kid, it would have been life-changing to be so seen and understood for the first time,” so…

JA: Oh my gosh!

TB: It meant so much to me, and I wanted to… relatedly, like, what has the response been? Like, I know people love it, but, like, have you heard from kids, or teens, or adults, that it meant a lot to?

JA: So many. It’s been so amazing. My heart is full to bursting with all the messages that people have sent me about this book and how much it meant to them. I got a message from a mom of a trans kid who, she carries the book with her in her backpack to school every day as, like, a kind of… Yeah, as, like, a little talisman or, like, some sort of sympathetic armor to get through the day. And I keep getting messages. I got two this week of people who, parents who had these… who had given their trans kids this book, and that they loved it and identified with it, and it meant so much. So it’s  really wonderful that it’s… it’s reaching those people, but it’s also reaching people who, like myself, transitioned later in life, and like, the dedication of the first book is, like, to the girl who needed this book ages ago and couldn’t find it.

TB: Yeah, that was me, thank you.

JA: (laughs) No problem. It was a lot of people, and it’s continued to touch a lot of people, because I… I did want to write the book that I needed as a kid. And it’s so wonderful that the kids who need it now are getting it, and are able to be inspired, and to be… confident in their lives because of that book. We talk about superheroes as what they’re supposed to do is inspire. And, like, sometimes that happens, and sometimes it doesn’t, for certain. But it’s really nice to see it happen, and to see it happen with Galaxy, and it’s really wonderful.

TB: Yeah, it’s the best feeling. Because as a creator, you know, you put these stories out there, and you hope that it’s going to connect with people, that the people who need it will find it. And when it does, oh, it is the most magical thing in the entire world. But I just want to say that I was lucky enough to not only read an early copy of the follow-up, Galaxy: As the World Falls Down, but I was also asked to blurb it, that’s very exciting for me. 

JA: And a very nice blurb you provided, too!

TB: Oh, well, thank you. But I found it even better than the first book, which I would not have thought was possible, because I love the first book so, so much. And I think, like, you totally outdid yourself. And Rye Hickman’s art, oh my god, is so gorgeous. So perfect.

JA: Rye’s amazing. I love working with Rye. I will work with Rye as long as they’ll have me.

TB: Yes, yes, they’re so good. So, do you feel… I mean, I think I have my own answer for this, but do you feel that people who have not read the first Galaxy graphic novel can pick up As The World Falls Down and start there, if they’re intrigued by this? Or do you feel like they should get the first one?

JA: Oh, you should definitely start with one, you should always start with one. Right? Like, that’s the truth of any series. Could you pick it up cold? For sure. I like to think that we catch everybody up pretty quickly in the first handful of pages.

TB: You do, yeah. 

JA: If they were coming in without having read number one, but, like, I mean… because of the way it works to be part of an interconnected series of stories, like you said, the ideal reading order is, of course, Galaxy: The Prettiest Star, and then Nicole Maines’ Bad Dream: A Dreamer Story, in which Galaxy appears, and then Galaxy: As The World Falls Down. So that’s, like, the ideal reading order, if you were looking for it. Which is, like simultaneously the second book and also the third book, depending on how you look at it. But, you could come into it cold. You can do anything you like, there’s no rules.

TB: No rules. Read it whichever way you want.

JA: Yeah, yeah, I think it works as its own, number one, but, like, it is better if you read it having read Galaxy: The Prettiest Star, and even better if you’ve read it and read Bad Dream.

TB: Yeah, there are so many references and little callbacks to The Prettiest Star, but also Bad Dream, which I really love. And I love their friendship, like, they’re the two trans lady superheroes in DC, and they’re, like, best friends, and it’s so great.

JA: Yeah, there’s a bunch of trans characters in DC, which is wonderful, but I… I love that Dreamer and Galaxy get to be friends, I love that. Because so often the trans characters are siloed, and like, here is the one because…

TB: The one, the token.

JA: Right? Like, here’s the trans character in the Wonder Woman section, here’s the Bat trans character, here’s that. And so, to have these two who not only are in the same, like, area, but also get to be friends, and to have that friendship has been so meaningful. And it’s meant that I have a friendship now with Nicole, which has been wonderful, and something that I cherish. So, it’s really great that also our characters get to be friends.

TB: Yeah, she’s wonderful. We’ve gotten to hang with her a few times and she’s amazing.

JA: She’s the best.

TB: Well, I have been a DC fangirl for my entire life, and I would have loved to introduce a new trans woman who was a superhero to that universe, and you actually did it! You did the thing, and I’m so glad you did, and Galaxy is so important to me, so…

JA: Yeah, it’s… it’s funny, too, because, like, when I pitched it, which, again, years ago, because it takes so long to make a book, as you know.

TB: Yeah.

JA: Nicole hadn’t been cast as Dreamer yet.

TB: Oh, it was before she was even on the Supergirl show?

JA: It was before she was… so there wasn’t anyone. Yeah. It takes so long to get a book done. And then the pandemic happened, so it took even longer.

TB: Yeah, yeah.

JA: But it’s, like. it’s before she’d been cast, and, like, there wasn’t, there wasn’t really a trans… like, Alysia Yeoh was there, but she’s not a superhero.

TB: Yeah.

JA: So…when I was doing it, I don’t think I thought about how… I don’t want to use the word “groundbreaking,” but I guess that’s the only word… groundbreaking it was.

TB: Sure.

JA: Because, like, the closest we had to that was Kate Godwin, right, who’s, like, a Vertigo character. And, like, she’s been embraced by the main line now, but at the time, like she was both a Vertigo character and dead, so, like, that didn’t count. But I didn’t even think about that at the time. I was just telling the story I wanted to tell, and it wasn’t until after it came out and people started talking about it in that context. I was like, oh, that… that is…yeah, she’s kind of exceptional in that way. Like, it’s… she’s the only character in DC or Marvel who’s trans who has her name in the title. Or the first, because, like, we have Bad Dream now. But, like she was the first to do that, and, like, the only one to have a series now, with two books. But I’m glad that I didn’t think about that when I was writing it, and it wasn’t about that.

TB: No pressure, right. Yeah.

JA: Right, because, like, again, at the time, I was like, “they’re never gonna do anything to this character again.” This is not… this is gonna be a one-off that’s gonna be weird, and someone’s gonna find it in a back issue bin, and like, “huh, I didn’t know they published this.” But it’s… it’s wonderful that it’s been more than that and… that it’s touched so many people, and I’m really proud of that first book with Jess. I’m also proud of the second book with Rye. It’s just they’re the books that I’ve always wanted to write, and so it’s great to finally be able to write them.

TB: Well, it shows. I think your heart is all over them, and it’s… they’re beautiful, and I love them both so, so much, so thank you for sharing her with the world.

JA: You’re very welcome. 

TB: And thank you for being here!

JA: Oh, well, I mean, talking about Galaxy is my favorite thing to do, and you were delightful to talk with, so it was very nice.

TB: Aw, well, thank you. Galaxy: As the World Falls Down releases on May 5th from DC Comics, and you can pre-order it right now. And do it, because you need to read this book.

It will make you believe in love again.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com


PS – For the full and correct reading order:

1. Galaxy: The Prettiest Star

2. Bad Dream: A Dreamer Story

3. Galaxy: As the World Falls Down

INTERVIEW WITH AURORA ZENITH ABOUT THE JOY WHO LIVED TRANS THEATER FESTIVAL

NOTE: This week’s update is a transcription of a live interview done as part of the Tilly’s Trans Tuesdays podcast. Special thanks to Duna Mae Cat for the transcription!

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! This week, we’re gonna talk about an amazing trans theater festival here in Los Angeles, and the good news is the entire thing will be livestreamed, so you can watch it from anywhere. Let’s talk about THE JOY WHO LIVED.

Tilly Bridges: Hi, I’m Tilly Bridges, your host, and I’m joined by my writing partner, my best friend, my wife, our token cis representation, the biggest joy in my life, Susan Bridges.

Susan Bridges: Hello!

TB: Our guest this week is Aurora Zenith, a trans producer, performer, and musician with over a decade of experience producing live events. She is a producer and co-founder of podcast network Dragon Wagon Radio, and most recently was production coordinator for the narrative short Out for Delivery, which premiered at the 2025 Sundance Film Festival. Welcome, Aurora!

Aurora Zenith: Hi! Thanks for having me, I’m so excited to be here!

TB: Of course, and… Working on a film that got into Sundance, that’s pretty cool.

SB: Yeah, right?

AZ: It is very cool, thank you. Humble brag a little bit, but I mostly am just the beneficiary of my incredibly talented best friend, who is the director and writer of that short. She is a force to be reckoned with, and I was fortunate enough to, like, get to lend a hand, and follow along to Sundance, which was such an incredible experience.

TB: That’s amazing. Like, we know, because we just made a short last year, and it’s still going through the festival circuit, and it is brutal trying to get into festivals, so… Sundance is huge.

AZ: Yeah it’s tough, and I think, you know, I can’t talk from a lot of experience here, but I know Chelsea has had many films that have gone through the festival circuit, and it’s always a grind. But until this one, which for whatever reason really struck a chord with folks, and we got into Sundance, we also got into South by Southwest and, I think we’re closing the run this month, with 31 festivals under our belt, which is really cool.

TB: That’s amazing. We should be so lucky.

AZ: You will be! It’ll happen!

TB: Oh, well, thank you.

AZ: I’m putting it out there.

TB: All right, before we get started, we usually have a few questions we like to ask our guests so the listeners can get to know you better. So, for you, what has been the best thing about transitioning?

AZ: Oh my god. Where do I begin?

TB: There’s a lot, right? There’s a lot of really good stuff.

AZ: There is a lot. I… have… Wow. I mean, my life is, like, completely different than it was before I transitioned, and everything is better. I think if I had to pick one singular, like, very concrete thing that I could point to, it’s that I… and this is, I know, not everyone’s experience, so I feel very, very fortunate that this is my experience: I had chronic anxiety and depression as long as I was alive, and always believed that that was just something I was going to have to manage forever.

I don’t have that anymore, and that is crazy to me. So, my day-to-day baseline enjoyment of life is so much higher, and, I mean, I think it just really comes from getting to finally be myself, you know?

TB: Yeah, I mean, I don’t… I didn’t have depression and anxiety in the same way, but I was really badly affected by dysphoria and life was awful, and I felt awful all the time, and, like, the wildest thing to me is finding out once that went away from transition, and I started to feel better and alive, like, I’m an extrovert? What? What?

AZ: Oh my god, Tilly, me too!

TB: Really?

AZ: I was always like, I’m an introvert! Meh.

TB: Yeah.

AZ: And, like, in the last couple years, I’m like, “actually, I think I’m an extrovert.” Like, it’s crazy to go from “social situations drain me” to, like, “social situations fill my cup.” Like…

TB: Yes! Yes!

AZ: It’s a wild thing.

TB: It’s bananas. I did not think anything like that was possible. It turned out I just didn’t want to be perceived as the wrong person, and suddenly…

AZ: Yeah! It turns out that performing to everyone all the time is exhausting.

TB: Right? Who would have thought?

TB: Okay, well then, on the flip side of that, what has been one of the most difficult parts of transition for you?

AZ: Oh, that’s a good question. It has been overwhelmingly positive. So it’s, like, hard to… but of course there’s hard things. I think, like, maybe one of the hardest things, and this feels like a little embarrassing to say in, like, a strange way, but, like transitioning from being perceived as a cis man to being perceived as a trans woman, and losing all of that privilege that comes with being a cis man is a hard. Like, I knew, but I didn’t know. You know what I mean? I have so many friends who were cis women and trans women and… and, like, I knew… but experiencing it firsthand is very, very different. And oh my god, and then this last couple of years has made it even crazier. And so there was really, like, a learning curve of just, like, how do I feel okay when suddenly I have to worry about things like my safety? And people taking me seriously at work, and, men saying creepy things to me, and all of these other things that come with it. So, I think that was the hardest thing.

TB: Yeah, that’s fair. I mean, I don’t think trans women pre-transition experience male privilege the way cis men do, because, you know, we never conform to exactly what they expect, and they will punish us for it. But we were conferred a bit of that, like, if we walked into a room and nobody had interacted with us and didn’t know us, we were given that male privilege, and it just changes everything. Like, I remember it changed so much for [Susan] when I transitioned, because you were like, at being cis, you’re like… now you’re the one with more power in society, or more… people will listen to you more than they will listen to me. Whereas before, as I was a very tall, perceived cis white man, everybody would listen to me, until I started not conforming, and then I was punished, but…

SB: Yeah, yeah, and you were like… if it was a public transit situation, I would feel much more secure with you, and now all that’s gone. Don’t get that anymore.

TB: I’m still very tall and buff.

SB: True.

TB: But I am perceived as a very transy woman, so…

SB: So, yeah.

AZ: Yeah, you’re powerful, Tilly. You’re powerful, for sure.

TB: Thank you!

AZ: Yeah. No, that’s so true. I read something somewhere that I thought was really astute, which is, male privilege when you’re cis comes free. But when you’re trans, male privilege when you’re cis-presenting comes at a cost, right? And so it’s like… it isn’t exactly the same, for sure. I would never, like… I was the victim of so much patriarchy, as many cis men are as well, actually. But yeah, the way people perceive you does make a difference in your experience moving through the world.

TB: Yeah, my favorite story about that is, the week that I came out, a man that I was often in meetings with suddenly repeated the thing that I said back like it was his, and I’m like, at least he sees me as a woman, so…

AZ: I call that ewwphoria.

TB: Ewwphoria, yes exactly! Like, thanks for seeing me as a lady, but that’s gross. Okay.

AZ: Yep. Yep.

TB: Well, all right, let’s get into talking about The Joy Who Lived. This is a trans theater and comedy festival in its second year here in LA, and I only found out about it when it was all planned, and I first heard about it and went to see some of the shows in the first year. And it was such a moving experience for me, to see all this beautiful trans art that was made completely without cis gatekeepers. And these were our stories told by us, and we need so much more of that. And I’m so happy that I get to be part of it this year, but I’m not gonna go too much into detail about that, because everybody listening has heard me pitch that, and the festival itself, at the beginning of all the last few episodes, and this episode. So, did you want to let folks know how the festival came about, and how you first got involved with it?

AZ: Yeah, so… my getting involved with the festival, Tilly, is really similar to yours. I, like, was not involved the first year, and I was actually, like, you know, something I think about all the time is how grateful I am to be living in LA, how fortunate I am. Because, like, you know… I go to, like, all my favorite places in LA, like Vidiots, and Geeky Teas, and I’m surrounded by trans people. And then I’m like, “hmm, I’d like to take a writing class. I bet there’s a trans writing class.” And I google “trans writing class,” and sure enough, Maddox’s writing class, The Joy Who Lived, pops up, and I’m like, of course, I’m in LA, of course there’s a trans writing class.

And so that was my introduction to Joy Who Lived, is I was really searching for… I was honestly searching for two things. I was searching for more trans community, and I was searching for more opportunity to be creative and reconnect with my creative roots. And Joy Who Lived kind of fit both those criteria. And so, going to that class, I got to perform in a showcase at the festival, and then I also went to a ton of shows at the festival, went to some of the parties, met the folks working on Joy Who Lived, and basically was like, “I love this!”

It was so meaningful to me, to see trans people coming together and being creative and bringing so much joy into everything they were doing. And yeah, it was just… it, like, came along at, like, kind of the perfect moment for me. And so, I basically just started saying, “hey, I really want… next year, let me know, because I would love to help.” And, back over the summer, Laser, who is the founder and artistic director for Joy Who Lived, was like, “hey, we’d love you to come help be part of the steering committee this year.” So now this year, I am operations coordinator, and also part of the programming committee, and it’s been really fun working on it this year. It’s been honestly, like, so rewarding, especially, frankly, with every… I mean, this is like, of course, everything has its caveat right now, especially with everything going on in the world. Like, it has felt very, very good to sink my time into something that feels like it’s helping other trans people. And is empowering for other trans people. So that’s a little bit of my story. I know, like, Joy Who Lived when it first started, I think the story that Laser and the other two founders, Maddox and Petey, like to talk about is that this was originally counter-programming to the [transphobic wizard play] play coming to town, which I love.

TB: And then that makes sense where the name came from, if you are familiar with those books, so yeah. Because I remember the first… the festival last year, it was… about the same time as it is this year, like, March… late March, early April. And that was not long after… I mean, that was, like, what, a couple months after the inauguration, after that horrible election, and so I was just… I felt so bad, and then going to see that, and see all this trans art was just… it, like, healed me somewhat, you know? It was just this beautiful thing, like, “we can still do this”. They can’t stop us, and we’re gonna make all this great trans stuff, and I’m so glad that we get to be part of it. Like, I wouldn’t have even found out about it if we didn’t make our short film, because our short film starred Griffin Kelly. And she was like, hey, I have a show this week. I would love for all of you to come see it. She’s amazing. And we’re like, what is this show? And it was part of the festival, it was her show in the festival last year, and we got the program, I was like, “look at all of this! It’s amazing!” And then we went to a whole bunch more, so… yeah, it was great. And she stars in our show this year, because we love working with her, she’s… disgustingly talented.

SB: Yes.

AZ: Yeah, she’s incredibly talented. I think she’s in, like, every show this year, maybe? She’s so good.

SB: I would believe that!

TB: It was wild watching the reels of actors who applied to be in our show, and she was, like, in a bunch of their reels. Just incidentally, like, she works in so many things, and she was at all of their stuff. So what does the steering committee do? What is it that you do, like, to help the festival exactly?

AZ: Yeah, I mean, we’re… it’s basically a group of volunteers, that just come together to, like, plan and execute the festival. And so, last year, I know this was… it was really, like, Laser, Petey, and Maddox just on their own, seat of their pants, like, throwing it all together. And this year, there’s about, oh gosh, I think there’s, like 15 of us that are helping out in different ways. So, that’s huge. It means that Laser doesn’t have to do everything, and Petey and Maddox don’t have to do everything, which is great. But it also means we get to do a lot more, which is really cool. The thing that I am really focused on is the operations piece, so, like basically the website design, how we ingest… like, setting up all the forms and doing all the backend… all the backend tomfoolery to make sure that we’re, like, able to ingest everything and make sure it’s all working. I’m sure you’ve used the producer portal and things like this. These are all things I’ve built.

TB: It’s so organized and helpful, it’s amazing!

AZ: Thank you!

TB: Very professional.

AZ: Yeah, and then the other piece is I was part of the programming committee, so that means literally, as you know, going through and interviewing folks who had submitted shows, reviewing show submissions, and deciding what we’re gonna program in this year’s festival. It was a huge undertaking. We had, like, I think 86 or something show submissions, and then we had, I think 150 actors submit as talent. It was a lot to go through, and… you know, so heartbreaking that we can’t program everything. It’s only a two-week festival. There were so many incredible submissions.

It was really hard to sort of finalize, but I feel really proud of the lineup we have this year, including your show, that I’m so excited for. And I think it’s gonna be a really fun festival.

TB: Thanks, I’m very excited for it, yeah, it’s… like, there was the schedule that was posted, and, like, it only had the titles of shows, but I was very intrigued by a lot of them.

AZ: Yeah, more is coming, more is coming.

TB: And before we get too far and I forget, I did want to mention that Laser has been a guest on this show, and I meant to look up the episodes ahead of time, and I forgot, but they were back in the single digits. He was one of the first guests we ever had, I think, or, like, in maybe 10, 11, 12. So, way back when.

SB: It would have been a while ago.

TB: It was a while ago, yes. Go back and look, you’ll find them, he’s great.

SB: Find Laser! That’s your homework.

[Laser was guest on episodes 5 and 6 of the podcast, on WHAT REAL CIS ACCEPTANCE LOOKS LIKE and THE SIGNS WERE ALWAYS THERE.]

AZ: Find laser, it’s good advice, good advice. Laser knows what he’s doing.

TB: At the very least, you’ll have an amazing conversation. What has the festival meant to you, personally, like, compared to other projects that you’ve worked on? Like, you’re a creative, you know, you’ve worked on a lot of other things. So, like, is it… different, this, for you, like, emotionally? Or do you feel more attached to it, or…

AZ: I mean, you know, something I said to my best friend after the first steering committee meeting we had was, “I feel like I found my people.” Like… it just felt like, “oh, like this feeling I have of being on the outside all the time, I, like, suddenly don’t have working with the folks that are putting on The Joy Who Lived.” Because it really is this perfect Venn diagram of my interests, which are being trans and doing live shows. So, yeah, I mean, it really, for me… working on this has brought such a sense of belonging, which is huge. The piece I already mentioned, which is just, like, the impact. Like, one of my favorite things about the festival and the way that especially Laser and Maddox think about the festival (Maddox is the Director of Education, for those of you that don’t know) is that it’s a… the way Laser puts it is, it’s a learning festival. So you don’t have to have a perfectly polished show to necessarily get programmed in the festival. You could be someone who needs help putting on a show, and we will help you, and we will connect you with other trans talent.

TB: Can verify!

AZ: Yeah, and there’s all these workshops we’re doing during the festival, too, so if you, like, aren’t even ready to put on a show, but you just want to dip your toes in, you can. And I think the ethos is very much like… so many of us have this experience as trans people of, like, totally starting our life over from scratch at, like, 30. And sometimes you don’t have 20 years of acting experience to fall back on, and you’re starting new, and you need a little help. And so I think a lot of the way that we approach the festival is, how can we give folks that help? And that feels so meaningful to me, rather than it being sort of a gatekeepy, like, you know… let’s try to be really, really inclusive. And I think the fact that it’s online and remote, as well as, you know… all of that. We try to do as much as we can to make it accessible to folks. And that’s really, really important to me.

TB: Yeah, that meant a lot to us last year, because a lot of shows we haven’t been able to go to, because there’s, like, no masking policy, you know? And it would be kind of dangerous. And I could not believe that the festival last year required masks in the audience for everybody, for every show. And they’re doing it again this year, and that’s just wild to me. It’s so amazing! And like, we have never done a live show before, and so I can definitely confirm that you are very encouraging and helpful to people who have no idea what the hell we’re doing, so… thank you!

AZ: That’s great! We’re all in it together, because I don’t know what I’m doing either, so we’re gonna… we’re gonna figure it out.

TB: Yeah, I mean, that feels very trans in the best way, right? Like, we help each other through, even if we don’t know everything, we’re not gonna gatekeep each other, we’re all just gonna work together and make something cool. And I love that so much.

AZ: Yep, exactly.

SB: Oh, and also [American sign language] will be for some shows. And some are on request. If someone wants to request ASL, they can.

AZ: Yeah, and in fact, if anyone has any accessibility needs, we are going to be putting accessibility information on the website soon. And if there’s anything that’s not there that would enable you to be at a show, reach out to us, and we will try to figure it out.

TB: They will, because they’re really good people, it’s amazing. And there’s sliding scale tickets, I think, for almost every show, or all shows? I’m not sure if every show has it, but I think so? Most of them?

AZ: It’s a little bit show-dependent, but yeah, as much as possible, we try to offer a sliding scale. And the great thing, too, is that between last year and this year, Joy Who Lived is now part of a non-profit. Laser started a nonprofit called Trans Stories, and so the other really nice part is a lot of our money for, like, the venue and the tech comes from funding that we do, rather than ticket sales, which means all the ticket sales… well, 90% of the ticket sales, get to go towards the artists. So the other… the other part of this is, like, we want to be able to pay people. So, that also feels really important to me.

TB: Yeah, like, we did a profit split with our whole cast, so that we told them exactly how much percentage of whatever the ticket sales are that they’re gonna get. And I love that we get to pay them for that, because you’re paying us for that, and it’s all just so wonderful. And you mentioned those classes… I’m also going to be holding one of those classes! I forgot the date and time. Stay tuned to future episodes, I will mention it. But it’s a class on writing television pilots and pitching, and I’m very excited to do that with a bunch of trans people who want to learn how to write those things. So, it’s just… The vibes are so good.

AZ: The vibes are good!

TB: They’re so good! If people listening would like to get involved with the festival beyond buying tickets, or attending or watching the streaming shows, how can they do that?

AZ: joywholived.com is where you’re gonna go for all the information. We are… right now, we have volunteer submissions that are open. So if you’re interested in, like, being involved more directly, and wanting to help out at the festival itself, we need people to handle cash, we need people to run merch booths, we need people to help set up parties, we need people to design sets and help construct sets. So, literally, looking for everything. You can submit to volunteer for the festival through the website. And then tickets are gonna be going on sale really soon [They are on sale now!], and we’ll be we’ll have tickets for the in-person shows here in Los Angeles, but also streaming shows. So, almost every show is streaming, and so, even if you’re not based out of LA, you can still, enjoy the incredible talent. And we’re bringing in folks from outside LA, too, which I’m really excited about. I don’t think we had this last year. This year is the first time we have some folks from outside LA who are coming, I’m putting on a show as part of Joy Who Lived, so that’s really fun.

TB: It is really cool, and I remember in one of the producer meetings, they were saying it’s not even just, like, one static camera with a wide shot of the stage. There’s gonna be multiple cameras, and you’re gonna be able to see facial expressions. So it’s gonna be, like, a really good livestream.

AZ: The livestreams look good! I watched a couple of livestreamed shows for Joy Who Lived last year, and I’m always like… LA is just so good at this, honestly. Like, every venue has a legit setup for livestream, yeah, and it always looks amazing, so…

SB: I know we’ve all had that livestream experience where it just wasn’t very good, and you’re just like…

TB: You can’t see anything, the sound is echoey, you can barely understand it, and that is not what this is. I wanna tell you…

SB: This is a quality experience.

TB: Alright, well, are there any last thoughts that you wanted to share with folks, or one last pitch to get them to see the festival, or anything like that?

AZ: I’m just gonna say… we would love to have you there. Cis allies are welcome. Like, obviously, come support your trans community and your trans friends, and, trans people: I love you, I want to meet… I have, like, my, like, toxic trait is I want to meet every single trans person I see, so please come hang out. And, yeah, it’s just gonna be such a good time. joywholived.com. I guess one little plug I will make for myself is that I am gonna be part of one of the shows. I’m in a show called Genderchella, which is, like, mini-Coachella for queers.

TB: I love it!

AZ: And I’m gonna be playing a couple of original songs as part of that,on April 4th. I’m a singer-songwriter and a musician in a past life, and I’m trying to get… trying to get back out there. So, that’s gonna be really fun, and yeah, there’s just a ton of great shows. All the information on all the shows is on joywholived.com, and we’ll be, making tickets available very soon.

TB: Excellent. Thank you for being here, Aurora!

AZ: Thank you, Susan. Thank you, Tilly. This was so nice, I’m so grateful to you for having me.

TB: We were delighted to have you on, and I am so excited to get the whole world excited for these shows. I may be overestimating the reach of this podcast, but I can dream.

Friends, the Joy Who Lived is such an important celebration of trans art, trans culture, and trans people. Please, check out joywholived.com and support all this great trans art. Our world needs it so, so badly right now.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com


Here’s the show Susan and I are writing and directing… a full-cast live read/performance of our original queer trans cyberpunk action dramedy pilot, ROBO WAITRESS ASSASSINS!

April 5, 2026, 12:30-1:30 pm pacific. In-person in Los Angeles, and livestream, tickets on sale now!

headshots of the cast in front of a black and white retro-futuristic city background

ROBO WITRESS ASSASSINS
A cyberpunk action dramedy full-cast live read!
STARRING
Griffin Kelly
Jacks McLaughlin 
Kacy Boccumini
Olabisi Kovabel
Ari Villalon
WRITTEN & DIRECTED BY
Tilly Bridges & Susan Bridges
Concept art by Phil Sevy
5TH APR 2026 12:30 PM
LIVE AND LIVESTREAMED
THE HUDSON THEATER, 6539 SANTA MONICA BLVD
TICKETS AT JOYWHOLIVED.COM
MASKS REQUIRED
ASL INTERPRETED
SLIDING SCALE
comic-style are of two women cyborgs in retro waitress uniforms, in front of a black and white retro-futuristic city background

ROBO WITRESS ASSASSINS
A cyberpunk action dramedy full-cast live read!
STARRING
Griffin Kelly
Jacks McLaughlin 
Kacy Boccumini
Olabisi Kovabel
Ari Villalon
WRITTEN & DIRECTED BY
Tilly Bridges & Susan Bridges
Concept art by Phil Sevy
5TH APR 2026 12:30 PM
LIVE AND LIVESTREAMED
THE HUDSON THEATER, 6539 SANTA MONICA BLVD
TICKETS AT JOYWHOLIVED.COM
MASKS REQUIRED
ASL INTERPRETED
SLIDING SCALE

TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 4: TV part 3

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! This week we discuss the rest of the television I watched and look at the overall numbers and see if we can spot some trends, in TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 4: TV part 3!

If you really want the full picture from these four essays, please be sure to see PART 1: MOVIES, PART 2: TV PART 1, and PART 3: TV PART 2 first. At the end of this essay we’re gonna look at the totals from the entire year and see where things are at.

Fab, let’s get this wrapped up!

resident alien promo poster showring the cast gathered around Harry, all looking at flying saucers in the sky, as Harry gives the saucers the middle finger

Resident Alien s4 – 2*
Nonbinary actor Jinkx Monsoon appears again (in this report), voicing a cgi gray alien named Bruce, who’s referred to with “he” pronouns. As the character is a literal alien we don’t really know if the “he” pronouns would correlate to the alien being a cis man in-world, but the show made the choice to cast a nonbinary actor to play a character that’s treated like they’re male, so I have to count this as actor rep, but not character rep… because this show has done nothing to make me think they’d include a transmasc alien that wasn’t intended to be a joke. I’ve said in past trans rep in media reports that I really like this show… but it’s also demonstrated some regressive ideas around gender on multiple occasions.

In ep 2 there’s a protracted joke about a cis woman who had sex with a cis man, and there’s questions about “who was inside who” and “of course she wasn’t inside him.” I think this is just another, “ha ha because women don’t have penises” joke, but y’know, some trans women do, so it’s still implicitly transphobic.

Also a cis guy later says, “I assure you I am all man, my penis is mostly intact” which just reinforces that dicks = men, but not all men have dicks, and not everyone who has a dick is a man. We are all more than our reproductive organs.

Harry, who was an alien that was made human, has an alien human hybrid son, constantly called a son and referred to with he/him pronouns, who is named Bridget. The baby alien puppet is voiced by a cis woman, and when the alien is in human form, is played by nonbinary actor Taylor Blackwell, and presents somewhat gender-neutral.

So the two options here are that Bridget the alien kid is nonbinary, or it’s a joke about how having a “son” with a girl’s name, voiced by a woman, with a gender-neutral appearance is “funny,” because Gender Reasons.

I’d like to give the show the benefit of the doubt, but based on its track record in past seasons I would have to lean more toward it being a joke. I won’t count it as a joke or as trans character representation in the tally, but my gut says, with this show, it was sadly meant as a joke.

Severance s2 -0
Still a show with a super trans premise that doesn’t at all get close to exploring transness within its world.

Slow Horses s5  – 0
In the season premiere, a cis woman insults a cis man, who wondered if any ladies were checking him out, by saying something like “please, your vibes are so asexual.” And it’s weird because the character’s definitely not asexual, and it’s not like nobody could find asexual people attractive? Boo. What the heck. This isn’t trans-related, but is a weird and terrible dig at asexual people for some reason.

In one episode, Lamb and his team are being babysat by people from MI5, and a cis woman is butting heads with him. He comes out of the bathroom and she’s standing there and he says, “I left the seat up for you.” Damn it, come on, that’s just transphobic bullshit.

star trek strange new worlds season 3 key art, showing each of the main cast in a color across a rainbow spectrum

Star Trek Strange New Worlds s3 – 0
There’s a brief gag where a cis man is in a blue suit with a big tie and flower crown at a wedding, and he says he was forced to be the maid of honor, and it felt very much like it was intended to be a joke, and y’know what, I don’t like that in my Star Trek.

One episode seemingly undoes the entire “genetics are not destiny” talk with La’an from the amazingly trans-affirming episode AD ASTRA PER ASPERA, which I did three essays about! It sort of flips the good on its head and says, “well actually, your genetics do determine who you are and have to be,” and that is… not great.

There’s an episode that features aliens called Metrons, who are kind of like sentient balls of light, and I have no idea if they have gender. They can take human form and appear fairly androgynous. The character was played by Dariush Zadeh, who I couldn’t find enough information about to confirm their gender, so I’m not counting the actor or the character.

Stranger Things s5 – 0
Will has a coming out scene, and though he’s gay and cis, it’s handled well and something a lot of trans people can probably relate to.

The Studio s1 – 0
In episode three someone says a cis man will, “laugh his tits off” and in the same episode women call cis men “pussy” and “bitch.” 

In another episode a woman gets mad and says, “blow me,” and in the same episode a studio executive says they have a meeting with the guy who wrote Harry Potter stage plays blehhh could we not.

In another episode a cis woman holds an open bottle of vodka at her crotch like a penis and jerks her hips so it splashes out the top (to… celebrate good news). Sure.

This show is fabulous and doesn’t need to resort to that kind of stuff, it’s just so ingrained into society, and comedy, that it shows up everywhere.

survival of the thickest key art, showing Mavis getting out of a taxi in new york city while wearing a fancy purple dress

Survival of the Thickest s1 – 2
Trans woman Peppermint has a supporting role. There are likely other trans people in the club she works in, but there are many and they’re not really characters as much as they are background extras.

In one episode, trans actor Jayae Riley Jr. plays Divinity, but the character’s gender isn’t mentioned. The same episode, sadly, contains a Harry Potter joke.

In another episode, a queer cis woman talks with her therapist. The therapist mentions her patient didn’t have the words or the experience to fully explore queer aspects of her own identity, due to the way there’s forced heterosexuality everywhere, and the way our society centers that around the pleasure of men. There’s nothing trans there, but it was so wild to see something like that said with regard to anything queer, I had to mention it. 

In another episode Mavis is designing a plus size lingerie launch and says she wants all kinds of models, and specifically mentions trans women among them. Later, at the lingerie showing, she talks about how important it was to give “these queens, kings, and nonbinary royalty” the spotlight they deserve. 

We love to see that kind of easy inclusion!

In episode 7, nonbinary actor Misha Osherovich plays Billy, who uses they/them pronouns.

Survival of the Thickest s2 – 1
Peppermint returns this season, and gets her own subplot, which leads to a wedding. It’s glorious and queer, and at one point she even says she looks forward to growing old with her new husband, especially since she knows that’s not a thing all of our trans sisters get to do. So rare and wild to see this mentioned in… anything. It was really well done.

In one episode, Mavis opens up a bridal gown pop up shop, specifically for women whose bodies don’t conform to the narrow view of most women’s fashion, and she specifically mentions trans women as a group who struggle because of this! More fabulous, easy inclusion from this show.

In another episode, Mavis wears a trans rights shirt, and Khalil creates a painting of Peppermint. He says he was inspired by all she went through, being Black and trans, and how she was “boundaryless.” We love to see it.

upload season 4 poster showing the cast in a digital world, in a pseudo-artistic/artificial style

Upload s4 – 1
This show has routinely been one of the worst offenders with implicitly transphobic jokes, and this final season was sadly no different. 

There’s a joke in episode 1 about someone they call “the penisless man,” who then appears, naked, without a penis. A ha ha, a man without a penis can you imagine? H I L A R I O U S.

In another episode a man is trying to convince the woman he loves to get back into a relationship with him, and says, “I’m pregnant.” Isn’t that so funny? I can’t stop laughing. They built a whole scene around this entire “joke” a few seasons back, and I guess it’s just so funny to them that they keep going back to it.

Trans woman Gigi Gorgeous appears as basically herself in the finale, but she’s not mentioned as trans. Also she’s just conducting an interview, and doesn’t really have a character to speak of. 

Wayward key art, showing a glowing green door in the middle of a forest at night, with the tag line, "welcome to tall pines. we think you'll be very happy here."

Wayward – 3
Created by and stars nonbinary actor Mae Martin, though their character on the show is a trans man, Alex. The story is a deep trans allegory about the way society gaslights trans people and all the trauma that causes, and how you can’t even trust the people closest to you, who supposedly love you, to not perpetuate that trauma. It’s also a pretty dark story, so keep that in mind going in.

One episode includes discussion of testosterone doses, Alex not having stubble yet, and not being treated like a man at his last job. Top surgery scars are shown.

In episode 3, a girl wants to go to Alex for help, and another girl says “A cop? All they do is wave their dick around,” and the first girl replies, “I don’t think he has a dick.” And it’s not… a joke? I mean it kind of is, but it was more a matter of fact. And not at all intended like the standard, “Yes your honor, this man has no dick,” “joke” that’s used to mock cis men because obvs not having a dick means you’re not a man. It was nuanced and kind of great, and this is what you get when trans people get to tell our own stories!

There’s a sex scene in episode 5, where they definitely don’t treat Alex like a cis man, and I mean that in the most complimentary way possible. It’s filmed as a trans man in a sex scene, and that’s fab.

Nonbinary actor Tricia Black also has a recurring role as Mule, though the character isn’t mentioned as nonbinary.

Misha Osherovich, who played a nonbinary character I mentioned in the report on Survival of the Thickest, was on the writing staff for Wayward.

Witcher s4 – 0
I believe there is a trans or nonbinary actor in the show, playing a character whose gender isn’t mentioned in dialogue, but I couldn’t one hundred percent confirm it, and I’m not looking to speculate or out people who aren’t ready to be out publicly, so we’re gonna just move on.

Yellowjackets s3 – 3
Nonbinary actor Liv Hewson returns as Teen Van, and is part of the main cast, though their character is cis.

Emily St. James and her cis wife are on the writing staff. Nicole Maines returns briefly in one episode, but the character is still not mentioned as trans.

And that’s a wrap on everything I watched in 2025! Let’s look at the totals, from thirty-four movies and thirty-seven seasons of television:

39 trans or nonbinary creatives (writers, actors, and/or directors)
18 trans or nonbinary characters
41 jokes about trans people

Oof.

The numbers look even worse if you remove Clean Slate, which had the most trans rep of anything and has already been canceled, so it won’t be back to boost the numbers next year:

30 trans creatives involved
13 trans characters
41 jokes about trans people

One show should not be carrying nearly a third of all representation! And this is also why it’s so incredibly devastating when trans shows get canceled, because often they account for a disproportionate amount of the representation we actually get.

Also keep in mind that the “trans writers/actors/directors involved” number includes Eve Lindley, Jinx Monsoon, and Peppermint, who all got counted twice, and Yasmin Finney, who was counted three times. If you’re looking for how many trans people were involved as individuals, the number drops from 39 to 34.

Also also, remember that many of the trans actors who are counted in the total were not mentioned as trans, and several of those had all of one line. For example, I really loved Heated Rivalry, and I think it’s hugely important for the queer community right now, and it had two trans people in it! But nobody watching knew they were trans and they each had one line. That is representation on a technicality, but it’s not really doing anything to help the sad state of trans representation in our media.

These were the numbers from 2024:
23 trans or nonbinary creatives
25 trans or nonbinary characters
30 jokes about trans people

These were the numbers from 2023:
31 trans or nonbinary creatives
20 trans or nonbinary characters
16 jokes about trans people

These were the numbers from 2022:
22 trans people
15 jokes about trans people

So what we see is a higher number of trans creatives working on things, which is great! But… far less trans characters on screen, and far more jokes about trans people. In fact 2025 had the lowest on-screen trans representation and the highest amount of jokes punching down at trans people, of any year since I started doing these reports.

I wish I could say that was surprising, but it mirrors how 2025 was the most transphobic year in politics, with the most anti-trans laws passed, than ever before.

I do want to remind you that the actual American public is largely supportive of trans people, and even after the 2024 election, all the Republicans who campaigned on anti-trans rhetoric lost their elections. It’s not a popular position! Most people are not transphobic!

But the political party in power sure is, and despite the fact that words like “liberal Hollywood” get bandied about, the studios are largely all run by incredibly conservative cishet white men. And that group is also largely from the tech sector and are all-in on Republicans, because they don’t want their precious large language model, error-prone, environment-destroying thievery machines to be regulated.

There are good producers and executives fighting to get more inclusive stories out there, but they are also limited in what they’re allowed to do by the people at the very top. 

And even still, cis gatekeepers of trans stories and trans art remain a barrier to getting our stories told. We still need a lot more trans executives and producers to help trans shows and movies get made, but I still don’t have any clue how we make that happen… because it’s going to take those same cis gatekeepers to finally help trans people get hired as executives and producers.

But until we change things behind the scenes to give more trans creators a shot, I fear these numbers will keep getting worse.

Cis producers, executives, and showrunners: hire trans writers, directors, and actors. As often as you can. And help them get their stories told. Please.

And trans and nonbinary creatives, keep telling those stories and fighting to get them out there. I’m in those trenches right along with you, and we’ve got to keep trying.

Because trans people deserve to see ourselves in pop culture, in media, and nobody else is going to do it if we don’t.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com

TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 3: TV part 2

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! It’s time to look at some of the absolute weirdest instances of trans rep, or lack thereof, in TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 3: TV part 2!

Be sure you’ve read PART 1: MOVIES and PART 2: TV PART 1 first, because these are all part of a whole, and we’re trying to get an idea of the bigger picture of where things are at.

Onward!

Loot season 3 poster with Maya Rudolph wearing a suit covered in diamonds, sitting behind a desk with a phone and coffee mug encrusted with diamonds, resting her elbow on a stack of money

Loot s3 – 1
MJ Rodriguez continues to have a lead supporting role as Sofia. But… but but but. See the 2022 and 2024 TRANS REP IN MEDIA REPORTS for the way this show just reallllllly wants to not say Sofia is trans, but alllllso doesn’t want to say she’s cis. 

They keep her in this nebulous area where you just don’t know, meaning most viewers will assume she’s cis and never think twice about it. But it seems like since MJ is such a notable trans actress, they also don’t want to say she’s not trans and piss off all her fans. It’s a very baffling thing.

This isn’t a trans thing, but the season premiere is all about how funny it is that old people have bodies and might still like sex. Which, I feel, kind of illustrates where some of the humor in this show is coming from. We don’t need to make fun of people whose bodies are different in appearance or ability, actually!

Here’s some more weirdness:

In episode 2, Sofia asks a friend to pick up her sister Destiny, who didn’t connect with her real name… Nicole. It’s a joke about names, and how giving yourself your own name is goofy actually. And they gave it to the trans woman, who they won’t say is trans. What the heck?

In this episode, nonbinary actor Jesse Leigh (who stole every scene they were in on Rutherford Falls) has a small role. The character is not mentioned as being nonbinary.

In episode three they’re in England, and there’s food with goofy names, one of which is “soldier’s tit.” Sure.

In episode four, a guy is getting to train his trainers at the gym, and tells them to “suck their fupas in” and “get those tits out.” Two implicit jokes in the span of two sentences, c’mon.

In episode 6, Sofia is mad that Howard is dating her sister, and he says, “We’re being safe, I’m on the pill.” C’MON.

Here’s something really weird. In episode 7, Sofia says she moved across the country to get away from her family, and they’re “very different people,” with no reason given. And then she thanks a group of guys for inviting her to their guy’s game night…. which is a thing a trans woman might be incredibly conflicted about. I cannot comprehend what this show is doing with MJ and her character, it’s baffling.

In episode 8, Arthur is asked to wear an outfit without a shirt, and he says, “My boobs will be out”. We’re… still doing this, I guess.

That outfit is like an open-chested tux with a cape that says “pussy” on the lining, and Molly’s outfit is a giant bow that says “cock” on the lining. You see, because putting words for genitalia associated with one cisgender person on the other cisgender person’s clothes is… funny? In some alternate universe, maybe.

In episode 9, Molly is dating a younger man, and Sofia says, “You’re turning gender roles on their head.” Which is a nothingburger on its own, but again giving that line to the trans woman to say is some kinda weird.

In episode 10, Sofia goes to a congressional representative for legal help, and an aide there mentions she should run for office to take the rep’s place. Hold up. She is trans and someone’s gonna ask her to run for office? Who hasn’t seen the state of American politics, and trans people within that system? What are you doing?? Just acknowledge her transness please! Or at least confirm the character is cis. It’s all so bizarre.

Later in the episode, one cis lady asks another cis lady if she’s, “Yankin’ her rod.”

Man on the Inside s2 – 0
A cranky old man, known for being kind of a bigot, calls Charles (who works for a private investigator) “Nancy Drew.” I think the gag is meant to be “look how this old man is a clueless sexist,” but nobody really reacts to it or calls him on it, or makes him the actual butt of the joke. So sadly all it does is just perpetuate misgendering as funny, which it’s not.

There’s also a lot of teen kids in this who call everyone “bro,” including their mom

Murderbot poster showing Alexander Skarsgaard's disembodied head held up by a robot hand in the middle of a pile of robot parts

Murderbot s1 – 2*
Nonbinary actor Sabrina Wu plays nonbinary character Pin-Lee, they/them pronouns are used.

Murderbot itself is also nonbinary, its pronouns are it/its.

Here’s my issue with this. Murderbot is played by a cis white man, Alexander Skarsgård, and the showrunners are two cis white men. The thing is, not only is Murderbot nonbinary, it experiences all kinds of marginalization and discrimination for being what it is. And to give that role to a cis white man, and have the show run by cis white men, feels like appropriation of a trans role. It’s kind of allowing cis white men to play at being marginalized. And it’s a leading role that should have gone to a nonbinary actor, at the very least.

It’s possible that Alexander Skarsgård, or even one of the showrunners, Paul Weitz and Chris Weitz, is nonbinary and not out, or is nonbinary and doesn’t know it yet, and that is why any (or all!) of them may have been particularly drawn to Murderbot.

But even if that’s the case, you have to be conscious that as far as the entire world knows, you are three cisgender white men who have taken a nonbinary lead character and co-opted them for cisgender white men, and that’s not good. There are so many fabulous nonbinary actors who never get a shot at a lead role, who would have been fabulous.

Not to mention the way you could have undermined the “strong cis white man action hero” type by casting anyone other than a strong cis white man. Murderbot is a robot, it doesn’t need to look muscular! It shoots lasers and has future armor, literally any body type would have worked (and allowed someone who doesn’t look tall, muscular, and imposing to be an action star).

So this one is very complicated for multiple reasons.

only murders in the building season 5 poster, with steve martin, martin short, and selena gomez standing tall in a new york city made from giant playing cards

Only Murders in the Building s5 – 0
There’s a scene where Oliver is sweating because he’s nervous and someone asks him why he’s sweating, and he says, “Menopause is difficult for everyone.” Le sigh.

Later in the same episode there’s a joke about how his gender-bent version of The Ten Commandments flopped, and that’s not a thing I’d even note for most shows, but given how transphobic this show got last season, I’m not sure if even something as small as that is just a weird joke or some more stealth transphobia sneaking in, because god doesn’t approve of trans people or something. 

This is what happens when you fall into the transphobic joke trap, sometimes you can’t escape and we stop giving you the benefit of the doubt. 

In episode five, okay… some really weird stuff goes down in a way that seems like it’s intentionally trying to stealthily reference transness? This episode features:

Charles (a cis man) goes on testosterone to make him more virile. Everyone’s fine with it, which you might think is a case of CIS PEOPLE GET GENDER AFFIRMING HEALTHCARE TOO, but then he says, “I’ve never been more connected to my body.” Which, like, is what HRT does for trans people?

He then says now he can open jars of… pickles. Specifically pickles. Which are a certified thing with tranfems.

It goes further, because this episode also features milky white suppositories… which is how many trans women take progesterone, which usually comes in milky white pills.

And then a robot is called a “short king,” which is apparently derogatory among cis men (because of course it is), but I hear routinely used as a compliment for trans men.

Like… what is happening here? Is this trying to make up for the massive amounts of implicitly transphobic jokes in season four? Is it also meant to be derogatory digs at trans people? So much in one episode feels like it cannot be coincidence, but I also cannot parse what they were trying to say with it. Not counting it as jokes at our expense, but it was definitely worth mentioning, even though it’s baffling.

In another episode, Oliver gets made fun of for wearing turquoise cowboy boots. Someone asks, “Are those women’s?” His reply, “They’re unisex.” And there’s a joke about Warren Buffet shaving his bikini line (because he’s a dude and dudes don’t wear bikinis! haw haw haw).

In a later episode there’s a joke about Oliver going to a manicurist, after he was just sexist about women going to them. And a woman walks into a room of two men and two women and says, “What’s up ladies?” Then later says, “Let’s go, ladies.” It feels it’s intended to be derogatory, and not like someone saying “guys” is just an example of societal sexism. And Mabel says, annoyed, that the defining characteristic of a “ladies night” is everyone having a uterus.

But not all women have a uterus, thank you.

The finale reveals that Charles was on a placebo, and not actually on testosterone, further muddling whatever was going on in episode five’s multiple stealth trans references.

season 1 poster for the pitt, with a bearded noah wyle in a hoddie in a hospital emergency room

The Pitt s1 – 2
Supriya Ganesh uses she/they pronouns, and plays Samira Mohan, who is cis. 

In episode 4 there’s a trans woman sommelier, played by trans woman Ava Everett Irving, who’s a patient in the ER. We find out she’s trans because when they call her back she’s deadnamed, because that’s what’s on her insurance. That’s a big oof, but it’s also a real thing a lot of trans people have to deal with (I have personally been there). Before she leaves, one of the doctors notices her gender and name were wrong in the system, and changed them without even being asked. That’s great, and a fine example of PROACTIVE ALLYSHIP.

On the one hand, this is really great representation that presents a trans woman as a human worthy of dignity and respect just like every cis person is, and even provides a great example to cis people of how to be an accomplice.

But also her entire appearance revolves around getting deadnamed, and while that is a real thing a lot of us deal with all too often, it’s also hard when the only context we show up in, in the entire season of a show, is about discrimination and barriers we face. This is part of the problem with there being so fucking little actual trans representation, too often it all revolves around our pain and suffering. 

If we had tons of trans rep with a wide variety of depictions, one or two that only touch on difficult things we experience wouldn’t be an issue at all. So this isn’t The Pitt’s fault, they did a good job, though adding another trans character somewhere who didn’t have to deal with transphobia would’ve helped. It’s just sad this is the state of trans representation in media.

In the finale, a cis woman says she thought the reason a cis man coworker went home early was because he’s a pussy. C’mon, we don’t need to do that.

pluribus season 1 poster, with rhea seehorn's head on the bottom, looking up and screaming, against a yellow background

Plur1bus s1 – 0
I love this show and the way it comments on the evils of colonialism, racism, xenophobia, assimilation, and the way fascism wants to flatten everything beautiful and unique about humanity into a dull beige paste.

I am continually haunted by the way the hive erases culture and art, and how queer and trans people no longer exist within the hive. The show has sparked more amazing philosophical discussions than any other presently running, and I love that. It really makes you think.

Carol’s wife dies in the premiere, and while that’s absolutely a case of the “bury your gays” trope, it serves an important story point and is needed to set up Carol’s relationship with the hive. But this is another instance of there just not being enough good queer representation in shows, just like I talked about with The Pitt.

If we had a lot of great queer rep, one queer spouse dying wouldn’t be a big deal. It wouldn’t even be a trope, it’d be like one member of a cishet couple dying… just another story point (provided that didn’t also fall into the Women in Refrigerators trope). But when there’s so very little good queer rep, seeing an instance of a happy queer relationship broken by a death, again, is difficult.

In episode 8, Carol writes a new chapter in her book series, and the male love interest she’d always wished she could have made a woman, but felt she couldn’t due to homophobia in the publishing world, is going to change to a woman via magical means. There’s no mention of trans people or what transness means in the fictional world she created, though, or even acknowledgement of the character in her book being trans.

When talking to Zosia, who represents the hive, Carol keeps pushing her to use singular pronouns, to say “I” instead of “we.” Zosia struggles, and Carol says, “All the brains in the world and you can’t navigate a fucking pronoun.” Which feels very much like a trans-supportive joke, and I am here for it.

poker face s2 poster with natasha lyonne standing in front of the show's signature blue car, with alternating yellow and blue squares with faces of the season's guest stars in the background

Poker Face s2 – 2*
In one episode a guy calls a cis woman, “Dude,” and she later says “I’m a grown-ass man.” Not counting the “dude” as an intentional misgendering (it’s just societal sexism in language), but her misgendering herself for humor is certainly a joke at our expense.

Nonbinary actor Nicole Orabona plays a bartender in an episode, but the character’s gender isn’t mentioned.

Trans woman Patti Harrison plays Alex, a recurring role that is… somewhat problematic. Her character is not mentioned as trans.

In one episode she joins a gym with a cis lady, and calls the two of them “gym bros.” Weird thing to make a trans lady say, effectively misgendering herself, even if the character isn’t trans.

In the finale it’s revealed that her character Alex is a killer, but that’s not all. She goes by “Iguana” and is so good at disguises that she can look like anyone. Everyone also thinks Iguana is a guy, but surprise! It’s the trans woman. In this episode she says she “choked off all her humanity,” and “I don’t really do physical pleasure.”

Despite the character never being mentioned as trans, they hit multiple harmful trans tropes: the “Surprise, my gender is different than you thought” trope, the “trans people aren’t human” trope, the “trans people as tricksters” trope, and the “trans people can’t experience physical pleasure after transition” trope. All of them are bullshit, dehumanizing propaganda about us.

So while the character of Alex wasn’t mentioned as trans, it sure as hell feels like the show itself treats her like she was… and punished her, and all the rest of us, for it. Supremely uncool.

And I’m not saying trans people can’t be assassins or serial killers in stories, we can and should play evil and bad characters too. But if that’s all we are, and along the way you reconfirm and perpetuate a ton of false bullshit about us… we’d be better off if you never added us to your show at all. 

First do no harm, damn.

We’ll leave it there for this week, but come back next week as we discuss trans rep in the rest of the complete television seasons I saw, and then look at the overall numbers… and compare them to past years.

The results may, or may not, surprise you.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com

PS – PART 4 is here!

TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 2: TV part 1

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! How did TV go in terms of trans rep in 2025? So glad you asked, because here comes TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 2: TV part 1!

If you haven’t read TRANS REP IN 2025 MEDIA, part 1: MOVIES yet, do so! It’s got all the contextual goodness that explains what the heck I’m doing (and not doing) in this report.

Okeydokey, onward through complete seasons of tv I watched in 2025!

TV

Alien: Earth s1 – 0
The opening of the season, especially the pilot, reads as really trans. I’m not sure if that allegory sort of falls apart as the season goes on, because I haven’t examined all eight hours of it super closely. So it might hold up, but it also might not.

In one episode, a cis man marine says “I should’ve called in sick,” when looking at a crashed ship they have to search. And the cis man marine next to him says, “that’s okay, I’ve got extra panties in my pack”. 

Like… because not wanting to go into a crashed spaceship makes you a girl who will piss herself, I guess? UGH. 

Arcane s2 – 1
Trans woman Eve Lindley (mentioned back in Part 1 for her starring role in National Anthem) voices the character Lest. Lest is not mentioned as trans.

The Bear s4 – 0
In the premiere, Ebrahim and Tina misgender each other for fun. Again. This is turning the one time this happened in season three into a running gag, I guess. But misgendering isn’t funny, y’know?

The Chair Company s1 – 1
Eileen Noonan (a friend of mine!) plays Westie in three episodes, though the role is small. Westie isn’t mentioned as trans. Eileen was one of the first guests ever on the podcast version of Trans Tuesdays! Listen to her way back in episode 4 on TRANS ROLES AND STORIES (and who gets to play them and tell them).

Laverne Cox and George Wallace leaning on a classic blue car in the drive in front of a house, with the Clean Slate logo

Clean Slate – 9+!
This show was definitely the GOAT of trans rep last year. It was, as is all too common with deeply (and visibly) trans shows, summarily canceled shortly after the first season debuted. It’s a charming sitcom about a trans woman moving back home to live with her dad.

Trans woman icon Laverne Cox co-created and stars in the show, trans woman icon Alexandra Billings appears in the pilot, trans woman icon Nicole Maines has a hilarious role in one episode (I know her, she’s lovely), and trans women Jojo Brown, Eva Reign, and Jazzmun also appear.

Trans man Jett Garrison directed an episode (I know him, he’s lovely), there were two (Two?! Unheard of!) trans women writers on staff, Shadi Petosky and Shomari Kirkwood (a friend of mine, who was on the podcast version of Trans Tuesdays, check out episode 110 on HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY and episode 111 on PUSHBACK OVERKILL.)

Okay dang I didn’t realize I knew so many people who worked on this show. 

As a gentle caution, there’s some deadnaming and misgendering in the pilot, because the dad “needs to figure it out.” But it’s not malicious, it’s presented as a thing an older cis person with no trans experience might struggle with.

The lead is allowed to be flawed and real, and it’s about her adjusting to small-town life and kinda falling for a guy. It’s a kind, heartwarming show, if you need trans rep like that in your life right now.

Cobra Kai s6 – 0
There’s a baby gender reveal party this season, and it just sucks to see that same kind of terrible “cis boys and girls are the only option, and we decide it at birth based on their genitals” ideas continue to perpetuate not just society, but also our art. Not going to count this as a joke or anything, but can we just stop with those already? We didn’t used to have them! We can get by without them!

There’s also a scene of a couple old guys calling each other “pussy” and getting mad about it, so it’s cool that “association with something typically seen as feminine” continues to be just the worst thing that could happen to dudes.

This one definitely goes in the joke column.

Doctor Who star beast poster, showing the Doctor, Donna, Rose, and a buncha aliens

Doctor Who special The Star Beast – 1
Yasmin Finney plays Rose, the trans/nonbinary daughter of Donna. 

The plot kind of hinges around her being outside the binary, and it felt a bit like they had to invent a reason to have a trans person on the show, rather than just saying hey Donna’s daughter is trans. 

There are multiple instances of Rose being deadnamed, and also accidentally misgendered while she’s not around, which is presented as something that’s tough for the cis people in her life (but we never see Rose’s side of it, and she doesn’t really have much going on outside of what she needs to remember about the Doctor for the plot, so she feels like half a character to me). Soooo that’s not great. Imagine a show including a trans character… and then immediately diving into CIS GRIEF. See the Trans Tuesday on that if you wanna learn about some bullshit.

And it feels like they do all of this to show you that she’s trans, but the word “trans” is never said, when it’s the easiest thing to do. The episode also has a misgendering joke when the doctor shows someone his psychic paper, and it lists his title as “mistress” instead of “mister,” and he grumbles about it not keeping up (the Doctor’s previous incarnation was a woman, played by Jodie Whittaker). But this moment? It’s entirely for laughs. Ha ha, this man identified himself as a woman, oopsie. Blerg.

Allllso… when Jodie Whittaker’s doctor regenerated into David Tennant’s Doctor take two, his clothes changed from her normal outfit to Tenant’s standard suit and long coat. No other doctor in the modern incarnation of this show up to that point, when regenerating, had their clothes change. They were always a new Doctor in the old Doctor’s clothes. So here, they changed the clothes with the regeneration to avoid putting cis man Tenant in cis woman Whittaker’s clothing… even though her costume was incredibly gender neutral, by Whittaker’s choice!

And I mention all of this only because they went to lengths to change the clothing with the regeneration to avoid the “uncomfortable gender stuff” of seeing a cis man in a cis woman’s costume, but then made a joke about “isn’t it funny that his psychic paper still thinks he’s a woman.” 

It’s a bit weird. I felt like the heart was in the right place with this, but it all felt a little inelegant to me. And it’s def not good that all the cis people and their feelings were centered over those of actual trans character Rose, who didn’t get to be much of a character at all. This one is both a joke and actor and character rep, tho.

Doctor who s14 – 3
Rose returns several times, and is often the tallest person in the room (this is trans girl realism, even if unintentional). She, sadly, never really has anything to do, and doesn’t have much of a character. And that’s extra sad, because Yasmin Finney has shown us how good an actor she is in Heartstopper.

In the episode The Devil’s Chord, Maestro (a campy villain) is non-binary, and played by transfem nonbinary actor Jinkx Monsoon. During the episode, the Doctor calls them “that thing.” Ruby, the Doctor’s companion, later calls Maestro “this creature.”

Yoooo, what the hell?! Like, yes, the Maestro is a demon, but… how can you not be aware of the dehumanization of trans people? Enough to call them a “thing” and a “creature?” It’s a bad look.

These don’t count as jokes, mind you, but the execution of the representation felt like maybe it shoulda been run by some trans people first. This is why you need trans writers on your writing staff, friends.

In the episode Dot and Bubble, trans man Pete MacHale plays Gothic Paul. The character is not mentioned as trans. 

So what we’ve got here is three trans actors, one of whom doesn’t have much of anything to do or in the way of character, one who’s othered and called a “thing,” and one who could have been playing a cis character. None of this counts as jokes or bad representation, but I also wouldn’t call any of this good representation either.

Doctor Who s15 – 2
Rose again appears in the season finale, but only has a couple of exposition lines and it literally would be no different if she weren’t there. Sigh. As these were all separate appearances for Rose (and not all within the same season), I’m counting them as three separate appearances for a trans character and actor. But remember that when we get to the totals, because it’s going to maybe make things look like there’s more rep than there is.

The episode The Interstellar Song Contest is a pretty fabulous trans allegory, and was written by trans woman Juno Dawson. After seeing this episode I posted on BlueSky “Doctor Who says trans rights!” and Juno liked that post, so it feels pretty likely the allegory was intentional.  But alllllso… Juno Dawson said she intended it as an allegory about Ukraine and Russia, and there’s also a lot of context about Eurovision that I just didn’t have, which makes this episode a Palestine and Israel allegory, and not in a good way. Credit to my friend and lovely human Jessie Gender for getting me that context I was missing. Here’s a very good explainer about it, along with the hit or miss history of British colonialism allegories in Doctor Who.

Duster s1 – 0
In the pilot in response to hearing about a lady FBI agent, someone says, “They got lady dicks now?” And the characters (two cis men) don’t laugh or treat it like it a joke, but the show kind of does. Because it seems like you’d only word it that way if the concept of “lady dicks” was meant to elicit a chuckle?

Foundation s3 – 0

Hacks season 4 key art, with Debra sitting inside a crescent moon, and Eva dangling off the end of the moon, with the tagline "better late than never."

Hacks s4 – 1
Nonbinary actor Carl Clemons-Hopkins plays Marcus, who is a cis man.

There’s a minor character named Ceecee Heauxmeaux, which is beyond the purview of my writeup on trans rep, but that sure feels like a kind of regressive thing to think is funny. Unless a queer person wrote it, which changes the context entirely. No idea who came up with that line, the credited writer on an episode didn’t always write every line or joke that appears in it, but it’s… well I’m gonna classify it as “weird.”

In one episode there’s a joke from Debra about how she shouldn’t have to be told someone’s pronouns when she didn’t ask. We’re still making jokes about pronouns, apparently.

In another episode there’s a joke about not wanting to hear complaints about the gender of Mr. Coffee. C’mon.

In one episode a cis woman jokes she’s “doing no nut November.”

In another episode Jimmy Kimmel, guest starring as himself, tells Debra to “Go shove your dick up Fallon’s ass.”

In another episode Ava, a cis bi woman, buys books for a baby, and the titles of two of them are jokes about gender – “One Fish, Two Fish, They Fish,” and “Which Bathroom is Nonbinary?” She says she got so excited when she saw them. The mom of the baby blinks in confusion. I want to note that if this scene were played earnestly, it’d actually be a good commentary about how kids actually should have books about being nonbinary, to better understand themselves or others. Instead the scene is played as a joke about how “wacko liberal” Ava is.

The penultimate episode of the season has a Harry Potter reference, a man throwing a purse over his shoulder and swinging it around for comedy, and a cis woman saying to a cis man, “We’re a couple of business guys.” Not gonna cool it as the season winds down, I guess.

Then in the season finale, Deborah says Ava needs “a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, or a theyfriend” … and for once it’s not played as a joke! Great. Yes. We can learn and grow! Buuuutt the same episode has a couple jokes about… Ace Ventura, and what the hell. When you reference one of the most transphobic movies ever made, that kinda casts doubt on the authenticity of your “you need a theyfriend” line, and now I wonder if it was meant as a joke that just didn’t land.

Look, I love this show a lot. It’s got really brilliant acting and writing.

But also in my past trans rep in media reports, it’s been one of the biggest traffickers in this kind of tired gender humor that pokes trans people in the eye. And the wild thing is there’s no reason for it, the show is brilliant otherwise! What are you doing with these lazy, gender essentialist jokes? I tallied eight of them this season! Stop it!

Hazbin Hotel s2 – 0

heated rivalry key art, showing Shane and Ilya facing off on the ice in hockey unifoms

Heated Rivalry s1 – 2
Trans Man Harrison Browne appears in one episode in a small role, with only a few lines. He was a professional hockey player in the National Women’s Hockey League and the first out trans athlete in professional hockey, and he helped form the first ever transgender policy in professional sports. It was a lovely nod to include him, but as he’s actually an actor and director now, it would have been extra great if he had more than a tiny role that didn’t impact anything.

Trans woman Miss Niki Nikita appears in episode 5 as a makeup artist, but has only one line and isn’t mentioned as trans.

The show is fearless in the ways it depicts love and sex between (cis) queer men, and includes a lovely, awkward coming out scene that I think trans people will resonate with.

Ironheart s1 – 1
Nonbinary actor Shea Couleé has a recurring role as Slug, and they/them pronouns are used. I think this makes them the MCU’s first official non-cis character! Which is amazing, but also when you think about how many characters have appeared in every Marvel movie and tv show combined… incredibly depressing that there’s only one, and it took eighteen years for it to happen. Ugh.

On the show Slug is a villain, and you could make a case they might be overly sexualized, but there’s nothing otherwise damaging about the portrayal.

Jentry Chau vs the Underworld – 0

Last of Us s2 – 1
Nonbinary actor Bella Ramsey continues to star as cis girl Ellie.

It seemed like they were possibly toying with the idea of letting Ellie be nonbinary too. There’s a scene where Ellie finds out her girlfriend is pregnant (by an ex-boyfriend), and says “I’m gonna be a dad.” It’s not played for laughs, it’s a genuinely sweet moment.

Bella said they wore a binder under their costume during “ninety percent” of filming (see TUCKING AND BINDING for more). The binder seems visible under their top in some shots, so I thought they really were gonna make Ellie nonbinary as well.

But later they take off their shirt, so someone can tend to wounds on their back and… there’s no binder. So it seems the times it might have been visible is because Bella was wearing it, with no intent to have Ellie be seen in it. 

And that’s fine, trans and nonbinary actors can play cis characters. The reverse is not fine, mind you, for reasons outlined in TRANS ROLES AND STORIES.

But it’s allllso fine for Ellie to be nonbinary. There’s no reason the character must be a cis girl. You can have the character come out as nonbinary, too, and let Bella rep who they really are through the art they’re making. It doesn’t change the story at all!

Leverage Redemption s3 – 1
The show has a nonbinary writer on one episode, which includes the line, “Ladies and gentlemen, and all the beautiful people in between.” Hey, that’s cool. 

Come back next week for part 3, as we discuss some shows that have a decidedly weird track record when it comes to trans rep.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com

PS – Part 3 is here!

TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 1: MOVIES

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! It’s time once again for my annual report on the good, the bad, and the yikes in popular culture. Here comes TRANS REPRESENTATION IN 2025 MEDIA part 1: MOVIES!

These reports have become some of the most popular essays and podcast episodes across Trans Tuesdays, and that’s fab. I talk about this stuff because nothing will ever get better if we don’t discuss these things. 

Pop culture holds enormous power in shaping the thoughts and feelings of those who see it, this is famously the entire point of art. And how trans people are portrayed in our most popular art forms tells us a lot about where society is (and is headed), and helps us see shifting opinions on us in society.

My past reports have shown a decline over time in good, authentic trans representation on screen, and behind the scenes, while showing a corresponding increase in jokes at our expense. See the 2022, 2023, and 2024 TRANS REP IN MEDIA reports for more on that. These reports actually predicted (or mirrored?) the shifting political headwinds as trans people became a larger target of the bigoted Republican party in the US. You could see the shift in our artistic representation happening, and then the 2024 election corroborated the shifting viewpoints in the results.

Movies and television take a long time to make, and much of what I will report on was made in the year(s) prior to the year of release. So again we see that shift happening as public perception of trans people more drastically shifted, as the propaganda and lies about us increased. It’s fascinating! And bad. Bad bad bad.

Every Trans Tuesday is someone’s first, so if you’re new to my trans rep in media reports, here’s the standard disclaimers. I’ll mention the title of the movie or show, and how many trans and nonbinary people (or jokes about us) appeared.

This report covers only scripted films and television that are fiction. I do not cover documentaries or “reality” tv, as the point is to look at how we’re appearing in the stories we tell and at whose stories are allowed to be told in popular media. I also am only reporting on films I saw all of, and shows I saw an entire season of. If I don’t see the full story, I can’t have an accurate picture of things.

This report covers only if trans people appeared (and in what context), and is not meant as a comment on the show or film’s overall quality. Plenty of things I love may have had moments of bad representation, or even no representation at all. Also I can only count trans people who are out as trans, for obvious reasons. Trans people who are stealth, or eggs who haven’t cracked yet, obviously cannot be determined.

In fact, as you’ll see, “no trans people at all” is the most common finding. There are also times when representation happens, but it’s in something I really don’t like. Sometimes it’s in things that are actively harmful to the entire trans community. See BAD REPRESENTATION: EMILIA PEREZ for more on how sometimes it is actually preferable for cis people to just… not do the thing they want to do with a trans character.

When this report talks about jokes at our expense, you need to understand they’re almost never overt “I hate trans people!” jokes. They’re implicit trans jokes, in that the people making them likely do not even know their joke is punching down at trans people.

Our society tells us men and women are “supposed” to be a certain way, and any deviation from that is to be mocked. Most often these are things like “that man has no balls or a small dick” or “this woman is talking about having a penis.” Most often, you’ll see this show up any time a perceived man does something that is perceived as feminine, or appears feminine, or is compared to a woman in a derogatory way. And every single time, if you stop to ask yourself why those are meant to be funny, it’s because our society has trained us all that the very idea of those things is just fucking hilarious. 

Those jokes are absolutely about mocking the reality trans people live in, but the people making those jokes (mostly) have no idea. They’re just perpetuating what society trained them to think, and in perpetuating those things, are training everyone watching to perpetuate it further.

If you want to know more about how implicit biases work and worm their way into us all (yes, all, even me and even you), see IMPLICIT QUEERPHOBIA, where you’ll see a cishet person’s reaction to queer and trans media illustrate this effect perfectly.

Also please note that I am but one exhausted and very hot woman, logging every single thing I watch for an entire year. It is so much work, and also I am bound to miss things. This is actually why addressing that a character is trans in-story is so important, because if you don’t, people are likely to miss it… even a trans screenwriter and director who is specifically looking for it. I’m trying my best!

Also also, this is not necessarily only things that were released in 2025 (though it largely is), but it’s things I saw in 2025. Our oversaturated media landscape makes it impossible for anyone to see everything that’s released, and sometimes you don’t even hear about something until a year or two after it’s out.

So everything in this report is either from 2025, or was released within a few years of 2025. I’m trying to find modern trends and representation, not stuff from older media. 

At the very end of these four trans rep in 2025 media essays, I will tally and post the totals, and then we’ll compare with past years and look for any trends. Will rep get better? Worse? Stay about even? Stick around and find out.

And the final disclaimer: to talk about these things, we have to talk about these things, which means spoilers abound. Be ye warned!

All right, let’s dive in, starting with:

MOVIES

Boiling Point – 0

Captain America Brave New World – 0

Companion – 0

key art for The Day the Earth Blew Up, with Daffy Duck and Porky Pig hugging each other in terror on a rooftop, with an alien flying saucer above them

The Day the World Blew Up – 0??
This is a Looney Tunes animated film, which contains a plot point that Daffy Duck has to lay eggs. He is… male. He has always been portrayed that way since his first appearance in 1937, 89 years ago. And in case you were wondering if they might’ve changed that for this film… Daffy confirms he’s a dude in this movie’s dialogue. 

He also loses all his feathers at one point and has… nipples. WHY?! Ducks do not have nipples! So either this is an instance of the oft-repeated “Ha ha wouldn’t it be funny if a man could get pregnant” (which some trans guys actually can) “joke,” or… Daffy Duck is transmasc. 

Do I think Warner Bros. is making a statement that Daffy Duck is trans? Y’know what, I do not. So this is our first count of an implicit joke at our expense.

Deep Cover – 0

Emily the Criminal – 0

Fantastic Four First Steps – 0

Flow – 0

Frankenstein (GdT) – 0
All Frankenstein adaptations are kinda transy, in my opinion, and the story in this film is kinda transy, but there’s no actual representation happening.

Good Boy – 0

The Gorge – 0

Hundreds of Beavers – 0

Jules– 0

Kpop Demon Hunters – 0
No transness here, but a lot of people think it’s a trans allegory. I have… thoughts about that, but they’re probably not what you think! Look for a report on it later this year.

M3gan – 0

Man and Witch: The Dance of a Thousand Steps – 1
Suzie Eddie Izzard plays… the voice of a goose. So we can’t count this as character representation (though to be honest, what trans person doesn’t identify with geese, amirite?), but it’s actor rep.

The Map of Tiny Perfect Things – 0

Mickey 17 – 0

National Anthem poster with Eve Lindley in an american flag top, sitting on a horse in the desert

National Anthem – 2* 
Trans woman Eve Lindley stars as Sky, and nonbinary icon Mason Alexander Park has a big supporting role. I suspect there are more trans or nonbinary actors in this cast, but it’s an independent film that got a streaming release, and so information on a lot of the actors in smaller roles was difficult to find.

It’s about a little refuge of queer and trans people living together in a house… well no, strike that. It’s about a cis white guy who discovers them and has a queer awakening, and falls in love with Sky. 

It’s written and directed by a cis man, based on a monograph he wrote while interviewing people at rodeos (a rodeo is featured in the film), after loving them as a kid and then being surprised at how queerphobic and transphobic they were.

This isn’t a trans story you’re getting, per se, but it’s a very queer one, and the trans rep feels authentic to me, perhaps due to it being based on those aforementioned interviews the creator did with trans people, or perhaps from his own personal experience if the film is more autobiographical than fiction. To be clear it is fiction, but we know it was at least in part based on real conversations he had with real people, so the line in there is fuzzy.

But if you’re looking for a (mostly) gentle and contemplative indie film with good trans rep, you could do far worse than National Anthem.

O'Dessa key art showing Sadie Sink with an elvis-like pompadour, in a leather jacket, holding a guidat with stars and moons on it, with the supporting cast in a neon sci-fi dystopia behind her

O’Dessa – 0
So this isn’t a trans film, but it’s a very trans film, if you catch my meaning. I’d really love to do a full trans allegory deep-dive on it, but it’s so very unknown that I think it’d not really be helpful to a lot of people. And not only is this a super trans film, it is very gender. Here’s some highlights:

The main character is the titular O’Dessa, a girl. And her father says to her, “Pecker or no, you’re the seventh son.” Like, how trans is it? Very trans.

There’s a man who wears high heels, like, all the time.

It’s a musical, and in one of the songs it talks about “Mother Nature’s beard.”

O’Dessa cuts all her hair off to look less like a girl. She sleeps in boxer shorts and a tank top.

She ends up being pretty butch, and is in love with a very feminine man. When they’re going to get married, she wears a suit and the guy wears a veil. The preacher then calls her the “prodigal son.”

It’s incredibly stylistic, has a lot to say about fighting conformity and fascism (directly!), and the songs are actually… really good? It stars Sadie Sink from Stranger Things, and the girl can sing (who knew?).

Definitely worth checking out.

Red Sonja – 2
This film was directed by trans woman M. J. Bassett, and trans woman Danica Davis has a small role (the character is not mentioned as trans).

Saving Buddy Charles key art, showing the two leads sitting on the hood of a car on a road surrounded by deserty mountains

Saving Buddy Charles – 1*
Non-binary actor (and friend of mine!) Analesa Fisher plays Clara, who’s a cis girl. This has a lot of the two main cis girl characters calling each other “dude” and “bro.” And I get that’s how today’s teens talk, but also that sure is gendered, ain’t it? 

I tracked more of that in last year’s report, but honestly it’s not specifically trans-related and it happens so much that I gave up on tracking it all. But once you look for it, you can’t help but spot it. And you never really see words that actually mean women being applied to people regardless of their actual gender, do you? It’s part of our society implicitly saying men are the default and what everyone should aspire to be. Stop doing it, maybe! See CIS IS NOT A SLUR (there is no default human).

Anyway, Analesa’s so good, so if an indie teen road trip is your jam, go see them give a truly great performance. It’s on Tubi.

Sinners – 0

Spinal Tap II – 0
A music promoter says Kpop is really popular and that he works with a Kpop band… but they’re not really Korean, they “identify as Korean.” Boooooooooo. Listen, this one is really insidious, because obviously people who are not Korean cannot identify as Korean. That’s not how it works. But that is how gender works, because gender’s a social construct. Gender, and yes, sex, can change. But this joke basically intimates that gender and sex cannot change, and that makes it entirely full of bullshit.

Star Trek: Section 31 – 0

Superman – 0
There’s no trans rep here, but the movie is very quietly trans-affirming. Essay about that coming in a month or so.

Thelma – 0

Thunderbolts – 0

Train Dreams – 0

Wake Up Dead Man – 0
There’s a bro who wants to be a Republican politician, and to whip up votes he says he tried “the trans thing” and “the pronoun thing.” But they’re literally in the middle of a long list of things Republicans get performatively mad about, to score points with bigots. They’re not at all at our expense, so no issues here.

We’re All Going to the World’s Fair – 1 
Written and directed by Jane Schoenbrun, who is nonbinary. And the film is absolutely about gender dysphoria, much in the way Schoenbrun’s next film, I SAW THE TV GLOW, was. I did a full write-up on IStTVG, but I don’t intend to for this film.

The allegory here is a little more obtuse and obfuscated, which makes sense as Schoenbrun said they didn’t realize the film was actually about dysphoria until partway through shooting it, when it cracked their egg.

That doesn’t mean they weren’t intentionally making a film about gender dysphoria, mind you, just that they were exploring it subconsciously and didn’t consciously realize it until filming, when they realized they were trans.

There is a trans woman who briefly appears on-screen, but she’s not an actual character and has no lines.

The Wild Robot – 0

Wish – 0

You Hurt My Feelings – 0

So across thirty-four new (or relatively new) films, I found seven trans people, two confirmed trans characters, and… two jokes.

It’s kinda dismal that we don’t have more representation in there, but there was nothing actually harmful, and that even those extremely low counts of trans people and characters outnumber the jokes is actually pretty stunning.

Will that hold up as we progress through all the television I watched?

Only one way to find out! Come back next week as we dive into 2025 trans rep in media part 2, television part 1!

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
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PS – Part 2 is here!

THE UNINTENTIONALLY INTENTIONAL TRANS ALLEGORY OF LISA FRANKENSTEIN, part 8

Lisa Frankenstein, part 8. An 8-week series examining its trans allegory, by Tilly Bridges, author of Begin Transmission: The Trans Allegories of The Matrix, at tillystranstuesdays.com, over a movie still of Frank/the creature, his face awash in trans-colored lighting

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! Tillyvision dial set to max bronze for THE UNINTENTIONALLY INTENTIONAL TRANS ALLEGORY OF LISA FRANKENSTEIN, part 8! This week, we get all the transition care we need and self-actualization arrives!

For the last time (in this series, anyway), I’m gonna pester you to be sure you’ve read PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4, PART 5, PART 6, and PART 7 first. I know, I know, it’s a lot of parts. Don’t blame me, I didn’t make this movie! All I did was love it. Yeah!

Let’s get this wrapped up!

1:24:48 – Frank leaves with the trash can that Michael’s penis and testicles landed in. Frank wants those things. And we know Lisa has bottom dysphoria, and Frank is Lisa’s self-actualization, sooooo… you know where this is going.

1:24:55 – Even still, Lisa goes to comfort Taffy, to try and make her feel better. Having to manage the feelings of the cis people in our lives when we come out, even though we are the ones society makes it so difficult for, is a very real thing we have to do. Often. CIS GRIEF rears its head again.

1:25:22 – Inside Taffy’s red car, with Taffy’s red face, Lisa still tries to comfort her, but Taffy pulls away. Horrified by Lisa’s truth.

1:25:58 – Lisa is still trying to comfort Taffy, who’s terrified. Lisa: “Thank you for being nice to me when no one else was. I did notice. It was just that your mom was so heinous that I- I’d already decided that you were, too. You’re the type of person who usually bullies me or looks right through me. But you didn’t. You actually went out of your way to try to tell people I was part of your family. You really actually wanted me to be your sister [emphasis mine].”

Even people who might accept us as nonconforming people of the gender we were assigned at birth cannot handle or accept us once they learn we’re actually trans. See CIS SPOUSAL AND PARTNER SUPPORT for more.

In Taffy’s car, Lisa hands Taffy her mom’s rosary.

1:26:39 – Lisa gives Taffy her mom’s rosary, those old fears and feelings will no longer hold her back! They do, however, belong to Taffy… now that she’s revealed her true, traitorous self, and betrayed Lisa.

Lisa: “You are, you know? You are my sister. You’re a great person, Taff. And I’m sorry… I hurt you. I love you.” We do love the people in our lives, and we never meant to hurt them. Coming out as trans shouldn’t hurt them, though. And society teaches us that we have to apologize for our very existence, for wanting to stop living a lie and be free from pain, just because cis feelings are hurt. And that’s bullshit.

Wave of Mutilation (UK Surf) by Pixies plays. More lyrics? Hell yeah

Cease to resist, giving my goodbye
Drive my car into the ocean
You’ll think I’m dead, but I sail away
On a wave of mutilation
A wave of mutilation
Wave of mutilation

You will think I’m dead, just like Lisa’s mom did, but Lisa’s going off to be her true self. And she won’t drown under the water of dysphoria, she’ll sail across it. With the body modifications she needs, which a whole lot of cis people sure view as “multiation.”

1:27:22 – Lisa picks up the axe (used to sever and obtain Michael’s genitalia), seemingly to go kill Frank? Cis grief has made her feel so bad she’s going to try to kill her true self for good.

1:27:51 – Lisa ducks under the yellow fear tape to get to Frank. But she’s now crossed the line of fear, it’s behind her now… and she can’t kill Frank. She can’t kill her truth. And so:

1:28:06 – She embraces her true self! Lisa: “You love me?” (do I love myself enough to do this?) “You love me?” She does. He does. I do. (marriage!)

1:28:36 – Lisa: “Listen, we’re running out of time. Make love to me.

1:28:44 – Frank looks down, then grunts in discomfort.

Lisa and Frank in the cemetery, Lisa’s hand on Frank’s crotch.

1:28:54 – Frank puts Lisa’s hand on his crotch. Lisa: “Oh. Oh. Oh!”

1:29:12 – Lisa’s asking herself if she can transition and be the man she wants to be without the thing our sexist gendered society says you need to be a man. And she confirms it to herself.

HERE COMES THE TRANSIEST THING IN THE ENTIRE MOVIE:

Lisa: “That’s okay. We can… I mean, you don’t need one of those to be a man.”

YOU DON’T NEED A PENIS TO BE A MAN.

Genitalia does not determine gender. You don’t have to get bottom surgery to be a man.

Lisa: “It’s actually like the least important part, really. We can do other things and it’s fine, it’s fine.”

1:29:23 – But Frank has Michael’s junk. You don’t need bottom surgery to be a trans man, but if you’re a trans man who needs bottom surgery then you should get it.

But either way, it’s not the thing that determines the gender you know yourself to be.

1:29:29 – Lisa: “You cut it off for me?” Yes, we will get gender confirmation surgeries if it’s what we need. And sometimes that means modifying our bodies in ways we need to live authentic lives.

Cis people do this allllllllllll the time, even while being horrified by, and legislating against, trans people doing the very same things. Again and again this comes up, please read it: CIS PEOPLE GET GENDER AFFIRMING HEALTHCARE TOO.

1:29:31 – When Lisa and Frank are closer than they’ve ever been, a police officer, aka the people who literally police gender in our society, comes in to break it up. “This is an active crime scene. You guys can’t be here.”

Women don’t belong in a grove for bachelors, this is unacceptable! (It’s worth noting actual cops are, as a group, incredibly hostile to trans people).

As in THE MATRIX films, police (and security guards, and Agents) are the tools the system uses to oppress trans people.

1:29:43 – Frank drops the cop in a grave. Your “rules” in support of THE FALSE DICHOTOMY and oppression will not stop me. They no longer apply to me. I’ve seen through the lies.

Lisa kneels on the floor in front of a standing Frank, next to the large penis drawing on the wall.

1:29:54 – Lisa, in what is intentionally a very sexually suggestive pose, attaches the genitalia her true self needs. Bottom surgery. Note the large “penis” grave drawing we saw earlier is right next to them. And what’s to the left of that? A women in old-timey high-fem clothing, like Lisa was wearing in her dream, but it’s in negative, the black and white are reversed. That’s the opposite of what she wants.

REO Speedwagon’s I Can’t Fight this Feeling Any Longer plays, but it’s a cover with a woman singing… a perceived gender change.

1:30:12 – On the black wooden cat behind Frank, it says “Feed the kitty.” Which, ummmm, may be a thing Frank can do after bottom surgery, if you… follow the euphemism.

1:30:23 – They come out of the shed with the magic electric tanning bed, the surgery, and the HRT, are complete.

Frank kissing Lisa’s hand.

1:30:29 – Frank kisses her hand. Acceptance. Thanks. And a goodbye to the person he was, who got him here. Look how Frank is now more human in appearance than ever.

1:30:38 – He puts a candy ring on Lisa’s finger, the two are now one. Their marriage. Their union. Frank will be all there is.

1:31:14 – Another kiss of self-acceptance.

1:31:53 – They change positions. He is now where she was.

1:32:01 – Returning to the opening animation style, they ride a rocket to the stars together.

Black and white animated image of a rocket in the man in the moon’s eye, as a man and woman’s silhouettes walk over the top of it.

1:32:07 – Their rocket crashes into the man in the moon and they walk across his surface, over and beyond. She did it. He did it. They’re here, and going further than they ever dreamed they could.

1:32:28 – After consummating their union, and gaining full acceptance, Lisa: “There’s no other way. No, don’t cry.” They kiss each other’s hands to cement the transition. His tears don’t smell now. Or, perhaps, she’s grown to like that smell as it affirms who she is.

1:32:36 – “I don’t know how I was ever afraid of you.” We spend our lives terrified of what’s inside, of who we truly are, because society teaches us to do exactly that.

But they, we, were never anything to be afraid of.

They’re about to kiss when police sirens interrupt them. Society’s policing of gender roles is still coming for them.

Frank, looking a little sad and awash in pink and blue light.

1:33:17 – Sitting on the edge of the tanning bed (which again, looks like a coffin), she hands Frank a note and uses her thumb to move a kiss from her lips to his, his face awash in trans lighting. For our true selves to live, our old selves must die. I SAW THE TV GLOW also uses this metaphor to great affect in its allegory.

Frank kisses Lisa in the tanning bed.

1:33:35 – As Lisa lies down inside, ready to fully become her true self, the final kiss of self-acceptance.

1:33:47 – She’s bathed in the dysphoria light. It, too, will die with our old selves, as we live authentic lives hopefully free of the dysphoria that plagued us.

1:34:13 – Lisa’s not afraid now. This is what she’s been waiting for, and what she needs to do.

1:34:19 – The sparks from the final transformation knock over a pillar with one of Taffy’s tiara’s on it. A pillar of femininity is falling.

1:34:27 – The tanning bed erupts in flames, the past is destroyed. Frank’s still a little sad and emotional about it.

Frank holds Lisa’s handwritten note, which reads “Death is temporary. I’ll love you forever.” And is signed with a lightning bolt.

1:34:38 – Frank opens Lisa’s note. “Death is temporary. I’ll love you forever.” She did not sign her name, for “Lisa” is no more. There is only a lightning bolt, a symbol..

…of the thing that allowed her to become him.

1:35:15 – The shed goes up in flames. A kid looking on: “Bitchin’.” Yeah kid, transition is bitchin’!

Worth noting that I SAW THE TV GLOW also uses flames, and even emergency vehicles showing up at a house, in the same way. We “burn down” falsehoods and society treats it as an emergency and a crime.

1:35:24 – Taffy and their dad visit Lisa’s grave. She’s dead to them. I SAW THE TV GLOW and THE MATRIX (specifically the Animatrix short “Kid’s Story”) also use this metaphor for how many cis people see us when we transition… we’re dead to them.

Taffy and Dad at Lisa’s grave, holding white, pink, and blue flowers.

1:35:43 – And yet, Taffy’s and Dad’s flowers are explicitly pink, white, and blue. As if, in death, perhaps, they could finally acknowledge Lisa’s truth. Maybe. But Taffy wear’s Lisa’s mom’s rosary, so she’s still chained under all those false beliefs.

And if you watch, Lisa’s dad doesn’t even leave the flowers he brought for Lisa. He takes them with him! Ugh c’mon man.

Red and white daisies at the base of Lisa’s tombstone, which is engraved with “beloved wife”

1:36:45 – But look at the flowers Frank left for her. They are, in fact, the very same flowers Lisa brought to Frank’s grave in Bachelor’s Grove back at 6:30 into the movie!

Frank was “dead” and had no way to know what she would have left him… unless he and Lisa were always the same person at two ends of transition.

Also, uh… didja catch what it says down on the bottom of Lisa’s tombstone? Beloved wife.

Transition: achieved. Self: Actualized.

1:36:51 – Frank is now on the bench, reading aloud. He has a voice. Finally!

He reads the poem “To Mary,” by Percy Shelley, who was… well, he was a lot, but he was married to Mary Shelley, who wrote the original Frankenstein (possibly as an excuse to get away from him for a while).

O Mary dear,
that you were here.
With your brown eyes
bright and clear.
And your sweet voice,
like a bird
Singing love to its lone mate
In the ivory bower disconsolate;
Voice the sweetest ever heard!
And your brow more than the sky
of this azure Italy.
Mary dear, come to me soon,
I am not well whilst thou art far;
As sunset to the sphered moon,
As twilight to the western star,
Thou, beloved, art to me.
O Mary dear,
that you were here;
The Castle echo whispers ‘Here’

Very much a longing for the one we love, the one we wish was here. And if you again view people in a romance as a person loving their true self enough to transition, it’s also perhaps a final goodbye. To the person we were, to the costume we wore, to the part we played. None of them our truth, but they persevered long enough, until we could be free. And real.

Lisa, in a red dress over an entirely bandaged body, with a pale white face and a red heart brooch, lays on the red bench with her head in Frank’s lap, as he reads to her from a book. Frank has rainbow suspenders on.

1:37:20 – Lisa is all in red, now she’s nothing but love. And she’s all bandaged, like a mummy (the poster in her bedroom/subconscious), like the papoose blankets she wrapped herself in, here at Papoose Lake. Even her brooch is a heart.

Notice again that the hat (which Frank gave her) has a flower on it, and she accepted it. Remember the opening credit animation, and how that indicated the perceived woman accepting the gift of Frank’s existence, but it disappeared when she rejected him? Well… here it is again. For good.

And her face is all white, going through the reversal of what we saw Frank go through. This is her end, and why Frank is saying goodbye.

And just look at his rainbow suspenders, he’s out and proud.

As we close out, I Call You Mine by The Zombies plays. Here’s some lyrics one. More. Time!

Though you and I would dance and laugh and play
Walk in the light of day and talk the night away
Could you see, baby, you understood then
That I loved you, how I loved you?


I couldn′t chance to break the spell we had
The happy times we had and yet the times were sad
Just for me, baby, you understood then
I was afraid to try to call you mine


But now, you’ve come to me (I′ll call you mine)
You’ve brought your love to me (I’ll call you mine)

Welcome, new real me. I’m here to stay.

And farewell, old me. You were never really me, but thanks for holding on long enough, and loving yourself enough, to get me here.

So! What’s your verdict? Was the incredibly deep transness in this film unintentionally intentional? Was it intentionally intentional? I think I’m leaning more toward the latter, but it’s up for debate!

But what’s not up for debate is that this is the most explicitly transmasc allegory I’ve ever seen, in a film that’s not only fun and a delight to watch, but that has so much to say about the ways society forces conformity on us all, and the damage that does to us.

Maybe at some point you got close to figuring yourself out, but then got scared, or hurt, and put the real you back in a box and buried them deep in your heart.

But Zelda Williams, Diablo Cody, Kathryn Newton, and Cole Sprouse are here to remind you that you can always let them back out. And you should.

It might just feel electric, and it might just make you whole, and a more real person than you’ve ever been.

Thank you for joining me on this installment of Tillyvision, and for accompanying me on the choppy seas as we ring the bells to keep the monsters away.

Transition saves us, babes.

And you’re worth saving.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
tillysbridges@gmail.com

THE UNINTENTIONALLY INTENTIONAL TRANS ALLEGORY OF LISA FRANKENSTEIN, part 7

Lisa Frankenstein, part 7. An 8-week series examining its trans allegory. by Tilly Bridges, author of Begin Transmission: The Trans Allegories of The Matrix. tillystranstuesdays.com.

Welcome to Trans Tuesday! Tillyvision batteries at maximum for THE UNINTENTIONALLY INTENTIONAL TRANS ALLEGORY OF LISA FRANKENSTEIN, part 7! This week transition goes further than ever, which causes those we love to reveal their true nature!

C’mon, just read PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4, PART 5, and PART 6 first so that you actually understand what I’m saying, okay? Do it for me.

Ok thx. Moving on!

54:51 – Lisa stitches the hand onto Frank. Here in her heart, she rejected the guy who assaulted her. Remember her confusion after it happened, in the “boys will be boys” world we lived in, as a trans man, when she wondered… if she didn’t want to assault women, was she really a man? Could she really be one? Is that really what “men are?”

No. You can be a man and respect women, actually, and here she’s finally rejected the kind of man Doug was. And it brings another piece of the real her to life.

55:27 – Frank goes for another dose of HRT energy in the tanning bed, and Lisa increases the dose to Ultra High. We’re moving up!

55:52 – Frank sits up from the tanning bed, more human than ever before!

A very human looking Frank sitting on the edge of the tanning bed.

And look, this is just my opinion, but his artful shaggy hair, the sideburns, the comfy casual clothes… Frank looks extremely transmasc-coded to me.

56:14 – They embrace, they dance in celebration. Lisa’s starting to really except her inner man.

57:03 – Frank immediately takes to the piano, to express himself. He’s great, and Lisa’s impressed.

57:55 – Lisa: “You had a whole life.” Frank points at her. “Yeah, I guess, yeah, I do. I guess so.” She does now!

58:10 – Frank wants her to play the piano with him, two as one. She says no, the piano is her dad’s, he hasn’t played since her mom died. Her only access to masculinity hasn’t expressed itself since her mom’s terrible reaction to Lisa being trans.

Frank and Lisa sit next to each other at a piano.

58:22 – She sits next to him, but doesn’t want to play. Clasps her arms behind her back. As they play, look how similar their hair is to each other as they sit side by side. Almost the same silhouette, but reversed. And we were introduced to Frank in the opening credit animation as a silhouette.

Huh.

58:40 – She sings, expressing herself as he expresses himself. They are as one. This is REO Speedwagon’s I Can’t Fight this Feeling.

I’ve been keeping a list, a long list, of popular songs that have really strong trans readings. There will be an essay featuring them someday, and let me tell you this song has been on my list for years.

It one hundo percento reads like a trans person truly accepting themselves.

I can’t fight this feeling any longer
And yet I’m still afraid to let it float
What started out as friendship
Has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

And even as I wander
I’m keeping you in sight
You’re a candle in the window
On a cold dark winter’s night
I’m getting closer
Than I ever thought I might


And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if, to bring this ship into the shore
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can’t fight this feeling anymore

This is Lisa’s transition self-acceptance song!

1:00:04 – Frank sniffles. Yeah! It’s so emotional to finally accept yourself! And live life as your true self. Though, again, the new smell catches her off guard.

1:00:39 – Lisa, to Frank: “You saved me.” Yeah, our true selves do save us. We are the one we’ve been waiting for (THE MATRIX is alllll about this).

1:01:10 – Lisa: “I gotta go change my pad,” Yeah, trans guys may have to do that, “and you gotta get upstairs for the night ‘cause they’re gonna be home soon.” This has been great, but I can only do this when I’m home alone, I can’t come out to my family or let them catch me.

Lisa sits next to her dad on a sofa, looking miserable.

1:01:31 – Look how miserable Lisa is having to hide her true self around her family. But she’s still in black. Though she’s still hiding her true self from them, she’s no longer hiding him from herself.

1:02:43 – Lisa makes a bad excuse to go up to her room (especially because Taffy is going to try and call their mom), and her dad notices her fingernails, there’s blood around them. What have you been doing? She’s suddenly worried she’s been caught.

It’s like when you experiment with gender when you’re alone and try to remove all signs before anyone sees, and maybe you missed a spot (we see this in I SAW THE TV GLOW (and Owen being ashamed of it, trying to wipe and scrape the evidence off of him).

But he’s not even worried she might have hurt herself, he’s agog that she used white out and not a pretty nail polish like she’d been taught. Nails should be polished and pretty and feminine! Never concerned with her well-being, only her appearance.

1:03:20 – Lisa goes into the closet, where Frank is playing with dolls. She laughs. Lisa: “That’s ‘Starlight Rosebud Hella Good Girl Gonna Need a Big Bank.’ But I just call her ‘Nibblets Corn.’ I don’t play with dolls anymore.” Is that… a name a girl who liked playing with dolls might name their doll? And the disdain when she said “I don’t play with dolls anymore”… is that because she’s too old?

Or because she wasn’t into “girly” things like that?

1:04:07 – Taffy calls Lisa from the hall, and Lisa freaks out and quickly closes the closet. Almost caught exploring your true gender again. Terrifying.

1:04:16 – When Taffy says she called her mom’s hotel and she never checked in, Frank thumps the closet door. With overly restrictive, transphobic, forced feminine gender conformity gone, the real us is anxious to finally get out of the closet for good.

1:04:21 – When Taffy’s talking about trying to find Janet in a Milwaukee hotel, note that she mentions Janet had multiple different last names. Forced compulsory cisgender heterosexuality says it’s fine for cis women getting married to change their names, but they balk at trans people doing it.

Remember Janet was a complete hypocrite, so this tracks. Name changes for me but not for thee. Gender affirming healthcare for me and not for thee. Once again, please see CIS PEOPLE GET GENDER AFFIRMING HEALTHCARE TOO, and TRANS KIDS 1: FACTS AND DANGERS (which will show you the very people legislating against surgeries trans kids aren’t getting make carve-outs in the laws to be sure they can force surgeries on intersex infants to make them conform).

1:06:00 – Frank, in a nightgown, uses the magic wand on Lisa’s shoulders. But Lisa is in collared pajamas with pants. With cowboys on it. Distinctively dudes. They have swapped.

1:06:32 – Lisa: “Do you feel anything in your body?” Will being a man make me feel like my body is mine, and that I’m whole? Frank grunts and nods. Lisa: “It must be kind of uncomfortable sleeping in the closet.” Let him out, let him feel.

Lisa and Frank lying next to each other in bed, in the same positions, both facing a pink and blue lamp on the bedside table.

1:07:21 – Look at them side by side in bed, in the same position, the trans lamp on the bedside table. Here, together in the subconscious, they face transness head-on.

1:08:40 – There’s an electric zap and the lights flicker due to the magic wand, and Lisa cries out “Oh my god!” We know what zaps mean. Life! Transition progress! Sometimes that includes learning how your body responds differently to certain stimuli after beginning HRT.

1:09:23 – Lisa: “After my mom died, everyone was in such a hurry to go back to normal. And they kept acting like I had a problem because I couldn’t stop missing her. Started to feel like I was going crazy. I thought that was gonna last forever but it didn’t, you know? And pretty soon everybody seemed like they were almost excited to move on and forget about her.”

Lisa’s mom’s betrayal wounded her, but everyone else just wanted Lisa to “go back to normal” and act like nothing happened.

1:09:48 – Here we see them drink at the same time, because they’re the same person. Lisa: “They kept saying, ‘time heals all wounds.’ But that’s a lie. Time is the wound. Takes you further and further from that place when you were happy. Makes those good smells go away. People are so afraid of death… ‘cause they don’t know when it’s gonna happen to them. It could be an axe murderer, it could be the flu, but they don’t know and they hate that, so… I’m not afraid of death anymore.”

She’s no longer afraid of transition, even though it is literally making her good smell change.

1:10:46 – They drink at the same time again. Lisa: “But I don’t want to die a virgin.” She wants to experience life, but for real this time. As her true self.

1:11:20 – Lisa asks Frank if he ever had sex, and Frank drinks while she clears her throat. Can’t respond when you’re drinking, y’know! Might make you choke a little.

Frank admits he had sex one time, with a woman he loved. Lisa: “I want that. I want to do it with someone I truly love. Like Michael Trent.” She wants to fully experience life as a gender nonconforming man. Frank grunts in annoyance, because he’s there already, but she still doesn’t feel like she is.

1:11:55 – Lisa says she’s going to “offer her body” to Michael. She’s going to try to make her body like his.

Lisa in a floor length black dress with long sleeved and dark sunglasses walks toward taffy’s car.

1:12:29 – Lisa’s now in the most black she’s ever been in. Transition is rolling right along. Taffy literally says it’s her costume. Nobody would really dress like that, Lisa.

Taffy’s upset about not knowing what happened to Janet and they switch seats, Lisa’s going to drive. Finally.

1:14:40 – Everyone at school knows Doug’s missing. Taffy’s too upset and says she’s going home, asks her friends if any of them can bring Lisa home after school, nobody wants to.

1:15:30 – Michael isn’t in class, he’s missing.

1:15:40 – Lisa gets called to the principal’s office. A girl student says, “Dress code violation.” Why are you dressing so weird Lisa? Don’t you know how to conform like a good girl? Girls don’t dress the way you do.

A boy student says, “Slut penalty.” You’re too weird for the conformos, you’d have to be a sexual deviant to dress that way!

1:17:31 – Tamara: “She’s off her rocker. She needs help. You know there’s a rumor that she killed her own mother.” There it is. She’s trans, ew. Punish her.

1:17:38 – As Frank walks, an old man disparages a young boy (in a dysphoria shirt!) trying to start a lawn mower. “Pull harder. What are you, a little fruitcake, huh?” Gender conformity comes for you when you’re perceived as a boy, even if you’re not, and even if you are!

1:18:02 – Frank takes a dysphoria club off the steering wheel of Janet’s car, which is yellow (she literally let her fear drive her).

It was locked by dysphoria, but now Frank is gonna drive. The horrible old man objects to Frank’s appearance. “This is my neighborhood. And you don’t need to be here. So carry your ass on out, or me and you gonna go after it right here.” Get out of here you fucking tranny, or it’s violence.

1:18:20 – Frank drives off after we see he laid the old bigot out (and took his clothes?!). The kid in the dysphoria tee waves and smiles happily as he goes. Protect trans kids, babes. And yourself.

1:19:17 – Lisa: “Shit is transpiring, man. You have to take me to Michael’s.” She wants her inner dude to take her to the non-toxic man she wants to be, still not fully comprehending all the red flags she’s seen along the way.

Lisa and Frank sitting side by side, Frank driving, in a yellow car. Both wear semi-formal Victorian-style clothing.

1:19:25 – Look at them sitting next to each other, both looking kind of formal, pseudo-Victorian in dress. They’re approaching the moment of self-actualization, when the inner man truly and finally comes out.

1:19:50 – Frank stops in front of a house with a ton of plastic pink flamingos in the yard. They kind of form a line. Lisa knows the “order” of conformity that she’s been taught, and this is her last gasp at fighting her truth. I’m just a girl who wants to bang a guy and nothing more.

1:20:00 – Frank doesn’t want her to have sex with Michael. You might be attracted to him, but mostly you want to be him, and that guy is right there in front of/inside of you, Lisa. Let him out.

1:20:14 – Lisa: “It’s your fault we’re screwed. You killed Janet, it wasn’t my idea.” We’re in this mess because I have a man inside me and not a woman, and you made me reject stereotypical femininity and the expectations that come with it.

“Okay, going after Doug was my idea, but only because killing Janed felt really good and I was just an accomplice.” You made me want to be the man I am and then I had to reject being the sexist creep that society says is just “boys being boys” because that’s not who I am.

Lisa: “But now you’re out of control. You’re beating people up, driving around in plain sight.” You’re making me see and reject all the lies of society, and you’re out where people can see you aka me! What will people think?!

1:21:20 – Lisa: “You act like you’re happy for me, and you care about me, but you’re not really happy for me.” “Stay in the car. Don’t let anyone see you.” Let the fear box you in, and hide your truth. Don’t let anyone see.

1:21:43 – The house is red. Danger. Taffy’s car is there. Red. Danger.

1:22:07 – The walls and the curtains are all yellow. She’s afraid of what she’s going to find, because she has picked up on the warning signs, even if not consciously.

1:22:22 – Lisa sees Taffy in bed with Michael, blue walls and blanket. Michael isn’t really different from other guys after all, and the despair of that (and of Taffy’s betrayal) is a lot.

As they’re about to kiss, she breaks in with a scream.

Remember at this point Taffy’s said she wasn’t into Michael twice, but those were lies. Michael gave her that hickey. And in fact, he even says he became infatuated with Taffy ever since the party… the party back at the beginning of the film when Taffy was supposedly going to confront him and Tamara about spiking Lisa’s dysphoria drink!

Taffy was going to defend Lisa, but instead just took the guy she was interested in. Just like when she outed Lisa to the other girls at the party, Taffy’s allyship has been PERFORMATIVE ALLYSHIP and FALSE ALLYSHIP all along. She was never truly on Lisa’s side, Taffy just wanted to feel like she was, so she could think of herself as a good person.

1:23:10 – Michael calls her “kiddo!” Infantilizing her just like her mom did, just like Doug (say it with me, I fuckin’ hate Doug) did. Michael is, in fact, no different from the rest of them.

He says he doesn’t have feelings for Lisa like he does for Taffy. Lisa: “Why? Because I’m not sweet, and simple, like her?” Because I’m not conforming to what society told me to? “Not enough polarity for you, Werner Heisenberg?” She’s name-dropping theoretical physicists now. As with silent film director Pabst, Lisa demonstrates she’s actually smart and knows a lot.

“You want to be the smart one who likes cool stuff, and you don’t want your girlfriend to like cool stuff. Do you know how uncool that is?” Why’s he gotta not be the kind of man she thought he was? The kind she wishes she was (and already really is)?

Frank’s hand pulling a pink and blue blanket off a bed.

1:23:45 – Frank comes in to stand up for her, pulls the blanket off of Michael. Look at the blanket colors, there’s pink and blue together. Something trans is going on here.

On the Wings of Love by Jeffrey Osborn plays. Time for some lyrics!

Like a stream running free,
traveling on the wings of love.
On the wings of love
Up and above the clouds
the only way to fly
is on the wings of love
on the wings of love
only the two of us
together flying high

If we again interpret flight as GENDER EUPHORIA and love as the love of self it takes to transition in spite of all society throws at you, here’s the “I’ve found myself and gender euphoria” moment.

And given what’s occurring when it plays…

1:24:16 – This is about Michael’s “manhood,” ie Lisa realizing she didn’t want him, she wanted to be him (or rather, who she imagined he was).

1:24:19 – Lisa is… not horrified to realize what’s going on. She’s… surprised. And excited.

Lisa looking surprised and excited as blood splatters on her face

1:24:44 – Taffy screams and is horrified by Lisa’s revelation. Lisa still stops Frank from hurting her. Lisa never wanted to hurt anyone, even when those same people don’t and won’t accept her for who she is.

Remember this kill represents Lisa rejecting what she doesn’t want to be, which makes this one extra monumental (and is why it comes last). For the entire movie she’s been wanting to be Michael, but in learning the truth, that even he was putting on a bit of an act and wasn’t who she thought he was, she’s rejecting that too.

She doesn’t want to be any kind of man that’s dishonest or uses women, she wants to be a sensitive, creative, gender-nonconforming guy. And so she shall.

And as a reminder, we don’t transition to hurt cis people, we transition to relieve our own hurt. If they’re going to make it all about them and act like we lied to them, even though it was them and all of society who lied to us our entire lives, perpetuating SOCIETAL GASLIGHTING, that’s on them.

It’s not on us.

Next week we bring it all home and see if Lisa finally becomes the Frank she is. You might even say… we wrap it all up.

Tilly Bridges, end transmission.
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